Song of the week:
I feel it in My fingers
I feel it in My toes
Love is all around Me
And so the feeling grows
It's written on the wind
It's everywhere I go, oh yes it is
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
You know I love You
I always will
My mind's made up
By the way I that I feel
There's no beginning
There'll be no end
You can depend
I see Your face before Me
As I lay on My bed
I kinda get to thinking
Of all the things You said, oh yes I did
You gave Your promises to Me
And I gave Mine to You
I need someone beside Me
In everything I do, oh yesh I do
You know I love You
I always will
My mind's made up
By the way that I feel
There's no beginning
There'll be No end
'Cause My love
You can depend
Ooh, it's written in the wind
And where i go
So if you really love Me
come on and let it show
Come on and let it show..
Shaleen "stole" my pen knife.
This week was plain horrible.
Fullstop.
Had moodswings after moodswing
Haha.
Dont y'all just love it when i'm in a bad mood?
But it was different this time,
I didnt scream/yell at anyone [proud of myself pls]
No vulgarities too =))))))
I just simply told them that "i dont want ANYONE near me. literally and metaphorically".
Oh ok, everyone excluding Sexy, Sunshine & Nat that is.
Haha but yeah Thnks anyway For giving me space
=)
I'm OKAY now!!
Nthg much to blog about nowadays cos i've got my Black Book with me now.
HAHA.
So many things happened this week
"waterfalls" everywhere.
Hope My msg made both of You show that sexy smile of Yours
Take care, k?
If You want THAT certain someone [M.L.] to die
Just tell me alright?
HAHA cos I got a list of perfect murder plans in My wallet
All You need to do is to CHOOSE, simple aint it?
And I know that there's a whole line of ever ready volunteers to get rid of That Someonething
Now smile for me & turn off that tap
I'll be here to fulfill my promise anytime, k?
Just call/msg me.
Oh do You know that tong2 is nice?
Haha i'm slow
I mean she look scary/fierce, right?
But Thnks =)
Take care k!
/i've got Nthg in return
Val asked what's up with me & my "/"
Hahaha i still dont know larh
double meaning?
Ok, not all is bad
Contradicting?
Watched movie with Michelle ytd
That was fun.
We had the whole row & my lays never came back
Ok, maybe it did
It came back EMPTY!!!
Mrs Leong said that i'm a horrible tcher.
HAHA, evil pls.
Oh, Sarah & I kept waving at each other during our chem lesson
Hahaha I was so scared that She'll get caught by Yeo
Oh, how cld I forget...
& We or rather I kept shouting into Her ear.
HAHA
She can never do a "proper" shout, practice sarah?
HAHA
Mr OLD Lau called me little girl little girl
LPP gave me a nickname "metal ***"
Now, Germaine & Pathma wont let me off
Grr HAHA
I got my Phoo tshirt!!
Happy pls
HAHA
iIt's damn nice!!!
That stinky feet & All!!!
Let's go out one day & wear that..
Hahaha the Anti-Papaya Phoo Club.
Oh oh! Can we ask the Papayas too??? [grin]
Highlight:
English lesson rocks [cant rmb when]
I asked Ms Koh if we cld use her period to discuss our class t
It was hilarious pls, I was down on my knees laughing
Like I said, "4c... Let Your imagination run WILD. Come, be creative"
Ms Koh was speechless with our "chosen" design
Hahahaha!
On the other hand, Ms Lee said that IT was waaay better than Madonna's
HAHAHA [grin]
4B was stunned when they entered Ms Koh's classroom
Should have video camed the whole thing pls
4c 4c... You shocked me, NOT.
"I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul"
Shaleen made me "dance" outside chem lab
I'm fickle minded, yesh yesh
HAHAH..
Like i said, "I'm scared..."
//thatREDlineonMywristbringsPleasure
tired of taking the initiative & everything everything. whatever.
i'm tired.
FULLSTOP.
/MovingtotheBackSeat
whoa
arh, yesh
go ahead sia
go ahead and invade
take over the damn thing pls
like yeah
self invite
grr.
I'll show y'all how horrible my mly is.. HAHA
Am i like the only one who types and saves their entries as drafts?
Saya berasa salah.
Saya tidak ingin menggunakan awak sebagai sesuatu untuk menghilang perasaan untuknya.
wait, that doesnt sound right?
perasaan? feelings? grr.
saya tahu bahawa itu la "intention" saya, menggunakan awak
tetapi "my conscience" tenya makan-ing saya hidup hidup
HAHAHA
gawd.
feel so pathethic!!
HAHAHHAHA
i bet natria, shaleen & faezah will be laughing their heads off reading this. hahah
"hidup hidup".
to seventeen :
saya telah sedar akan kesilapan saya.
walaupun saya tidak ingin membuat kamu sebegini.
tetapi, ini cara yang paling terakhir.
saya masih tersinggung.
akan cinta saya tehadap kawan saya.
maaf kerana saya terpaksa berkata yang kamu tidak seperti dia.
tetapi, kamu hanya setengah dia.
saya lebih rapat dengan dia.
dan saya lebih berasa gembira dan saya tidak bertopeng palsu apabila saya dengannya.
saya tidak tahu cara untuk beritahu kamu
yang saya sudah hilang "cinta" dan apa yang kami ada antara kami harus bertamat.
saya tahu bahawa perbuatan ini amat bodoh kerana saya dngnye juga sudah tamat
sudah tutup buku
tetapi saya masih bersenyum jikalau ternampak nya.
kami hanya orang asing (strangers?) tetapi ia menenangkan hati ku?
mushy pls. HAHA.
saya berminta maaf dan erm take care k.
take care is what ah??? berhati hati??
no what? berhati hati is be careful?
grr
gosh.
come to think of it...
17 is chinese.
HAHA.
nvm, get matt to translate it for you.
=)
take care.
/the places you have come to fear.
saya masih hidup dlm "past"
HAHAHAHA
told y'all its sucky.
gosh
... tell me please
what's going on?
what's up with all the drafts?
if i hadnt invade, i wldnt have known
and what IS up with it being "prince"
i'm all confused and messed up.
+seventeen
Gosh,
I'm pos to be studying by yeah
I was packing my room and
As I was going through this particular drawer,
I found letters and some letters that I did not send.
As I read through the contents of every letter,
I realised that I really DID loved Her alot.
Alot that up till now, She's still someone so special to me.
Its not going to change, I guess.
But of course I've moved on.
But then again,
Moving on doesn't mean i've forgotten.
=)
"do you wanna runaway
locked urself in the room
Shanna asked Me smthg that she obviously knows the ans
Duh-ness.
Now i really hope there was "another karmila in 4c"
I read other letters.
Letters from people MANY MANY chapters back.
A wave of regret came rushing towards me.
Why do I lead someone on then keep running back to Her?
Am I that fond of doing that?
But its not gng to happen again.
It won't.
we're freinds now
wait, we've been freinds all along
what the hell am i blabbering about?
HAHA.
I've got my eye on someone.
Someone, just a certain someone =]
Anyhow,
Was in the train with michelle
She was pissed over some stuff that happened in Her sch
Whatever, blah blah blah.
Anyway, there was this couple (?) standing infrnt of us
girl : EH. why u not talking to me?
guy : [looked away]
girl : what i do? sorry larh
guy : let's break. I loathe you.
girl : if you LOVE me, why break??
WHOA!!!
michelle and i looked at each other and was like... blank?
HAHAH was it loathe or love????
/i absolutely adore You
"And all the feelings I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is Wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is And when it's all said and doneGuess I’m still I love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is And it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is And when it's all said and doneGuess I’m still I love with you"
If You haven notice
It has been 41 days and counting
Woh.
Was blog hoping but dont worry
I've STILL haven broke my promise/vow with Y'all
W quote "im crazie for her. i want her. why wont she kno i like. help!! she's single. i want! wad is it that will make her like me. soooo shuai"
HAHAHAA!
Faints.
Goo! hurry goo!! she's single!!
GOO!
I'll be the cheerleader, cheering.
Watching you frm the side line xD
Hahhaha got a new mission on monday.
Find out how "she" looked like.
So queer.
"You're just not as high as you used to be" or something to that extend.
Soqu e erh owige t u sed im mune dtoH erhar shw o rds .
"Still Waiting"
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in
Drop dead a bullet to my head
Your words are like a gun in hand
You can't change the state of the nation
We just need some motivation
Three times I've seen a conviction
Just lies and more contradiction
So tell me what would you say
I'd say it's time, too late
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe in
Ignorance and Understanding
We're the first ones to jump in line
Out of step for what we believe in
But whos left? To stop the bleeding
How far will we take this
It's not hard to see through the fakeness
So tell me what would you say
I'd say it's time, too late
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe
This can't last forever
Time won't make things better
I feel so alone
Can't help myself
And no one knows
If this is worthless
Tell me: so
What have we done
We're in a war that can't be won
This can't be real
I don't know what to feel
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe
So am I still waiting
For this world to stop hating
Can't find a good reason
Can't find hope to believe
/s cre amwi thm e
woh.
i feel so tempted to blog abt something.
HAHA.
BUT i cant!
grr.
hurry stab me
this tempatation is killng me!!
sch was great. hahah
nat & i gave meiyi today's newspaper so as she wld rmb today's date
then meiyi looked confused and speechless. haha
gave her present after a while hahah
stood behind with sunshine
whoa. kiri, sunshine, ginni, nikko and adeline were damn funny
took attendance then met ms quek.
HAHA i slipped on the drain
grr
oh have i chnged or have i changed?
hmmm tough options?
apparently i'm "girly" now
i think pink's alright---> influnced by natria
i LOVE mly lesson cos that's when i laughed the most (wonder why)
hmmm but apparently again, i'm dao-er?
whoa.. never satisfied pls.
COS i dont "mix" anymore..
ok larh, anything x)
OH!! sooner or later (i hope it'll be later)
i'll be in skirt, make up & heels
sashe down town with my handbag
HAHAHA
GAWD!
pls.
hhahaha dont expect too much
hahha the most i'll be doing is tripping, stumbling & dragging my feet
which will most prolly be having blisters
HAHA
crap, i'm damn high
just waiting for ami to start.
oh ok. hahhaha
how the hell did i get to that subject pls?
anyway, i was gonna say.. hahha
did the eye disection
i was helping cherie
then the thing, the eye just jumped?
and i was like, "shit shit shit.. FFFff"
whoa, i was PHOO close to be cursing in mrs leong's class
then mrs leong took me aside & asked if everything's ok..
she said i dont have the "presence" anymore
hmmm... i got the shocked of my life pls
HAHA she "talked" to me but in a funny way
i was like, "nolah nolah" all the way
sorry ruth :/
stayed back
played hockey with ruth & nikki
did the art-attack thing with pei han
the sec1 swimming girls all so cute k
hahhaa asked them to do smthg arh whoaa..
i dont know laa.
haha
went back with sunshine and pei
then oh! mun hui!! congrats.. hahaha.
it just brings back the past doesnt it?
reading all the stuff that you wrote on your own blog?
about the different people
different situations?
fuck.
the "writings" that you wrote on your blog.
the "writings" that described everything that was felt back then.
its totally unfair for me to do this.
to write this entry.
unfair to certain people.
but really.
by just reading the past entries, you get immersed in the past.
as if you yourself are replaying the events once again in your mind.
and one part of you wishes to go through the instances again
to feel the warmth of the happy times
and another part of you warns you not to cause of the bitter things.
but it all just makes you a stronger person doesn't it?
i believe it does.
and suddenly you realise that everything that has since pulled you through happens to be untrue.
what would you do?
my thoughts are a little fragmented today, so I shall just write about the day's events :)
grr.
feeling so guilty.
HAHA.
made Her wait for 20 mins on monday and 45mins ytd.
ok, i lied. i'm not feeling guilty =) i'm loving it. hahhaha!
think ruth's crazy pls.
she took a LONGER journey back
she took the train towards jurong instd of the other way
but nvm, she can company me home. hahhaa
ate ALOT these few days.
in other words, i spend ALOT too.
monday.
[i cant rmb what happen]
sch was alright? i guess?
oh yeah! chem was the best.
i maluated myself infrnt of jes.
hahha she saw it all larh.
after trng played hockey then soccer with mr zainal, mr candran(sp?) and ruth while waiting for Her call and nat.
ate at mc then went yew tee to eat again with the donkey.
then went back and was forced to eat again cos my mom bought food. HAHA.
all of these and i'm STILL not putting on weight sia.
HAHAH, all thnks to my high metabolic rate :/
i want to be fat. HAHA.
oh yeah, i saw nick? she's such a flirt pls. yucks.
sch blablabla.. fell aslp during english period cos the passage was damn boring.
cherie "scare me to pieces" by jerking. hahah
ms koh was funny, " why nobody wants to listen to me"
had trng, jump jump.
then ate at tbp with ruth
laughed alot.
we maluated myself!
didnt know my neoprint was stuck on the money so i gave
then ruth dissed me
and the cashier laughed!!
then the cashier asked ruth 4times whther she's having here and ruth didnt understand.
so it's MY turn to laugh at ruth. hahah
her face was damn red.
went back with ruth, juli and er.. someone.
got the shocked of my life when i found out what julianna KNOWS.
like how??
i dont even talk-talk about it anymore or tell anyone..
and juli slipped it out larh
like grr...
forget it.
i dont give a flying fuck anymore
like everyone said "TAKE CARE"
oh shit, gtg. hahha.
/Sounding egocentric?
ohyeah, i hate that "cheer up" line.
why do pple ALWAYS think that i need to hear that?
like HAHA, be creative pls?
whoa, totally contradicting.
1st half of the entry, i was like HIGH and happy
now, i'm pissed and irritated?
er.. i dont think i am pissed?
GAWD~!
i dont even know what i'm feeling!
/you're just my favourite :))
whoa, my sis kicked my bed in the morning then asked me to hurry bathe and change. HAH. we went taka, wisma then fareast. today's weird.. really. hahha she bought for me that levi's that i wanted. hahahha just like that. hahha i was shocked. scary? yup. hahha then she bought skirt for herself then we ate cookies. hahha then ate at far east. then went lot 1 to buy her slippers then bought presents. haa. scary pls. hoo reached home anddd........
oh, i have a secret, i love [fill-in-the-blanks]
crappp.
everytime i see her, blood rushes thru my vein
and also, my heart pumps faster.
lols.
*hinthints
andd i'm watching soccer now. hahah singapore not bad eh. hahha.
/beam
Truth is a whisper and only a choice
Nobody hears above this noise
Always a risk when you try and believe
I know there's so much more than me
Yeah I got caught in the ruse of the world
It's just a promise no one ever keeps
And now it's changing while we sleep
And no one can see
Never got to know you
Did you ever wonder why
Now it's nice to know you
And I'm glad you're doing fine
Think of all the time lost
Was it really lost at all
Now I'm so proud of ya
I'd love to tell you all I see
Listen hard to your realities
Impersonality
It's leaning hard on me
Youb eaty ourhe adup onyourwa ll
Yo udi sco nnec tyo urse lffr omit all
Cu zyouk no wthaty ou'res obea uti fulan dsou ntou chable
An dIw antt ogeti nsob ad,an d
Ido n'tkn owho w
N oIdo n'tk no wh ow
Y ouhe ldyo urh ands ocl ose
A ndI jus t ca n'tpu shy oua w ay
iwi sh edyo uco uldb emyg irl
B utwer e'rest ucki nagr ownu pwo rld
Athousandwords,butnonewerespoken
Guessthere'snothinglefttosay
Anotherdreamjustgotbroken
Guessthingsjustturnoutthatway,
yea hIwa ntyo utolo vem e
Wa nty outok nowI' mju stli keyo u
Ju stlik eyou
Atho usa ndw ordswe resp oken
Anoth erd ream,a not herd ay,yeah
Iw anty outofeel
Wa ntyout ofe ellik eIdo
Li keIdo
Ath ousa ndwo rdswer espo ken
Gue ssthe re'sno thingl efttos ay,yeah
Iw antyo utoWa ntyo utok now
th ousa ndw ordsju stli keyo u
Ath ousa ndw ordsj ust likeyo u
ok, time REALLY flies.
been going home late and my parents starting to scold. grr but yeah, i'm trying. hahah.
start of the week beautifully with cheng's one-day-earlier-birthday party. although it started out bad cos all of us got pissed and irritated, overall it was great. managed to change the "mood". hahahha and cheng made me the rubbish bin, not literally ofcos. haha.had to finish everything. hahahha cant rmb what happened but the hightlight of the day was that cheng had tears in her eyes when she saw the cake. hahha. so sweet, right? hahha. we were shocked when we saw that. hahah. we were so full after that. hahah. "got ice cream not" DOTS la. GRR.
been spending ALOT of time with cheryl teo and her. =).
er... i really cant rmb what happen this week larh. hahah. i cant. ahahha. anyhow, i know i had fun. haha nthg saddening happen. beam.
ruth, michelle and i want to join track!! hahhaha. so fun ok! i can jump over huddle alr!!! i'm so happy~!!!
oh went back with cheryl on wednesday? smthg like that. hahha. oh yes yesh, it was wednesday cos yw's bday on thursday. oh an advise, dont buy/choose cake with cheng and dionne. hahah. trust me. dionne chose everyhting PINK and cheng wants pandan cake. HAHA. so anyhow, we literally made a fool out of ourselves pls. hahahha laughed like crazy! there's this sec 3 girl? i cant rmb her name. HAHA. anyway, she was cute la. ok, er... cheng happily talked to her in mandarin for the pass 2mins or so..when she doesnt understand!! HAHAH. elaine was like, "she takes mly". goodness! that was the joke of the day pls! hahhaha.
and and cheryl told or rather advise that girl NOT to go home with the both of us or you'll just laugh non-stop... WHICH is true. hahah. i was laughing cos cheryl said a very lame joke with FULL expression then i was like, "do you rmb that day when someone asked for our shoe shhhhhhize.." HAHA. i wanted to say size and i said "..." hahhaha. WHOA, we laughed like damn loud ah and there was this guy shaking? er... like laughing also la.
OH! there was this guy who pad locked his bag like ALL the zip had a lock. hahhaha and and this old man was using the dnt specs!! AND!! ahhh i can go onn. hahha.
er.. so yeah. ok! celebrated yw's birthday on thursday. hahha nat, xuan, yo, amanda, preena, meiyi, val, cherie, michelle and i bought for yw quiksilver bag. pei and nette gave wallet. dionne and carol gave mr. bean bear. hahhahahaha. cheng bought her chocolate cake. hahha WHICH i had to bring home the day b4 [stare] hahha and i panicked on the way to sch cos i was scared yw might see me. hahha. then pei delayed her then she was SHOCKED/SPEECHLESS went she saw the cake k. hahhaha. so funny!
cldnt bully her that day cos it was her birthday. HAHA. went for that that volunteer thing. SO FUN! in the bus!!! jes and i asked mrs fung to sit at the back with us and she really came!! hahha. we were so noisy ok! hahha and mrs fung tried to argue with jes. hahahha and mrs fung lost! HAHA. cherie was horny ok. hahha mrs fung kept shaking her head! HAHA. OH! the bus jerked right, and jes and cherie was damn auto la. they stick out their hand cos they thought mrs fung was going to fall. hahhaha and yw talked crap again. ok, didnt expect mrs fung to be THAT horny pls. hahhahaha. laaughed the whole way there.. and it was near CCK!!!! grrr...
we felt so useless at first k! 4C had to pick up used boxes. like arhh...!! hahha then slowly we slot in and helped with the packing. hahaha. gosh. think my row was the fastest! HAD ms martens. hahahha. the army guys were an asshole! yucks. kept banging my head with meiyi or dharshini. hmmm... dharsini's nice and funny. hahha. i want to do agian!! it was fun la!! hahah meiyi was evil ok. hahha. shall go into that later...
sch was great today!! they reselected the class committee. i'm no more the chair [smile] but i'm the vice :/ grr.. nat, yo and amanda was like, "we help you cos we no you dont want" so nice right!!? they didnt vote. hahha. but nvm! i'm working with xuan now. i'm happy. hahhaha.
i disturbed mr low. hahaha. i love my maths class ok. hahha with alicia, swee ling, preena, iris and ALL!
shit, gtg. gng out. bye.
TO BE CONTINUED.. i think. hhaha
oh btw, iris!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i'm sorry i cant go, it's friday. family day. grr...
/itwasyo u
phoo. 1 week is gone. ok, 6days. hahha. nat thinks i'm becoming like her. HAHA. ok, that's not bad right? hahaha. i'm beginning to like pink. hahaha. nat got the shock of her life when i told her that iris's mini ipod is nice cause i love the metallic pink color. hahah. this is gonna be long! hahah
so funny, i see cor EVERYWHERE now. hahaha. she'll jump in frnt of you anytime. hahah. i'll just die one day pls. "cause of death, corissa". hahha.
ok, i cant rmb what happened this week. hahaha. been busy. oh, mrs fung dont allow me to "quit" as chairperson. #@*#! i asked her.. she was like, "whyyyy??". i wanna slack and best part is, i have to deco the class board again. arhh!
anyhow, the days just keep getting better and better =)). hahah. monday was horrid. hahha put up a front then nat/cher scolded me so yeah. hahah the rest of the days were genuine. hahha. i dont think y'all understand me. hahah.
i love the sitting arrangement pls. hahah sitting next to cherie but she's been m.i.a. this few days :/ but its ok, i understand. hahah next to cherie is yw! YAY! she made me laugh all the time! hahaha she's crazy! hahah oh and the other side of me is amanda. hahah she's funny ok. hahah then yo and nat. hahah kept smiling to nat. ahhaha. infrnt is xuan! hahha. i love disturbing her. yay, hahah i'm surrounded by my buds! hahaha. jes is nearby! pei, michelle and val too! hahha.
summary,
jess and cheng/yw have smthg against each other or smthg. hahah in a good way la. hahah they're forevr teasing each other. hahah.
oh!! mr OLD lau is my maths tcher! hahha we're all trying our darness to keep awake. hahaha jo, farhanah, swee ling, preena, nikko and ALICIA's in my class!! so fun ok! hahha. mr lau's funny. hahaha. oh i asked him if i cld go to the toilet cause i drank alot during recess. hahahha then he was like, "ok! example on toilet. how many toilets are there on this floor?" and everyone started laughing. so i was like, "no no. i NEED to go, URGENT". he said, "yalah! how many??" gawd! i almost died pls. the rest helped me hahah they were like telling him i have and need to go. hahah so funny ok! then he said ok so i ran to the toilet. hahaha.
i cant rmb alr. hahah shit, i'm aging. HAHA. whoa, now i'm having bio lesson during trng pls. hahaha michelle kept testing me. she's crazy pls!
ANYWAY, ytd was fun! hahha. sch was great =) but after sch was EVEN better. hahhaa. had to help miss martens with the sch diary. hahah ruth was high and she glued the paper like macam never glue k! haha! then if ours was untidy, we just smiled when joan asked "whose" HAHAHAHA.
ruth and i went to find miss martens in the office. hahha miss martens was talking to someone, i cant rmb who. hahahha. she was in frnt of ruth then ruth turned to me and asked if she cld burp on my pinefore. like dots right??? and i actually said ok. HAHA! miss marten walked pass us and like she was just 2/3 cm in frnt of me. hahah ruth burped and i moved aside. hahha cos yeah! she burped in my ear!!! haha but the funniest thing was that, miss marten turned a few sec before ruth burped! hahhaha she was like, "where's..." and ruth BURP! hahha then it was exactly like a freeze frame in a movie ok, hahah. ruth covered her mouth and had that guilty look. miss marten looked flabbergasted. hahha and i was in between of them! hahah i just burst out laughing HAHAHA. miss martens pulled ruth and started hitting her shoulder. HAHA and i squeezed pass them. hahaha so funny ok! miss martens was like, "COME BACK 245!" hahha then we ran out, laughing! hahhah! ruth's face was damn red ok! hahaha!
had track trng. it was FUN!!!!!! scream! hahha. sunshine ran up slope. phoo. her face ah... ahhaa. michelle, ruth and i stayed back and joined olive, fei, sunshine and the rest of the track pple. HAHA. i malu-ated myself pls!!!! hahah i CANT jump over the huddle and ruth, michelle and the track pple did it like effortlessly...... kill me. hahahha. cher fell over it. ruth pulled up the wrong thing. hahha i ran away after jumping over 3. hahhaha. so malu-ating! hahha.
then we did the standing-on-your-arm-thing? hahah i did and like mr zender(sp?) was like, "back some more, some more" so i moved back until... BOOM. fell on my side. HAHAHAH! and they all started laughing!! hahaha. so fun ok!
then we played soccer! hahha. ruth damn pro. hahha. fer's a good goalie. hahha. elaine wanted to kick the ball back but i was there alr. hahah. she had that sad face k. hahah and AGAIN, i malu-ated myself. hahahha. michelle kept pushing the ball away! we TRIED doing deflection with the soccer ball hahah and we CLDNT. hahaha duh? hahaha
while waiting for sunshine to eat finish, i malu-ated myself again! cause dara's crazy! hahha she used the speaker and said my name so hahha i turned one whole round pls. hahhaha. and mitzhi lighted the lighter in my palm! hahha. she placed the lighter in my palm, like i have to close it. then she was like, "is it cooling? cold?" and i said yeah then she lighted it. hahah and i was like, "OUCH!" and she STILL cld ask, "hot not?" hahhaa.
so queer how you wld alws turn or walked away, FAR far away when i'm coming or there...
BUH BYE! hahah need to go trng. hahaha
/time's on my side =)
took me 4 days, think i'm getting rusty
i guess, i remember every single glance that you shot me.
but why did you throw away the thought of us?
i had to go on pretending that you dont mean a thing.
even had to psycho myself into thinking you meant nothing.
those painful days.
i found many excuses to not give a fuck
but i still care for you.
its hard to say i held my tongue
i could have.
but did i?
and the way you hurt me.
so deep that i didnt even bleed and catch me
so deep that i didnt even scream, fuck to me
that pride of yours
somebody, just hit me, knock me out.
knock some sense into my oh so fucking thick head.
all i want inside, i still am empty.
now, i've held back certain stuff i wanted to tell you
cause i know if i had told you, you'd flip.
and there's no sense in everything i'd want to tell you.
damn this senseless fool.
i hope all those feelings will all be lost in time.
holding tight and try not to hide how i feel.
cause i guess feelings mean nothing?
now i cant care to worry
i'm feeling so lonely.
breaking apart all this love in my heart.
close my eyes and move to the back of my mind,
where feelings just mean nothing
wait.
ignore me.
it's just another of my infamous moodswing
i'm fine.
nothing happened.
life's still the same.
i guess?
just thinking of things which i'm not suppose to be thinking about/of
that's all.
my silly fucked up thoughts.
/shaleen and sylvia CLEARLY hate me. i wont be surprise if pei and stacy too.
i LOVE pug jelly pls. hahhaha.
kick yellowcard... now its pug jelly. hahah.
have y'all heard the song erm.. wait ah.. "Another heartache". it's nice ehh. hahah. i download like ALL their songs. hahahhaha. some shucky but yeah. cant upload it into iwebtunes! tsk.
ok, i'm high. hahah. according to cheryl this is the
"BEFORE-GOING-TO-SCHOOL-THE-NEXT-DAY-MADNESS". hahahaha
i've a feeling that THIS is gonna be a LONG entry. hahhah. i'm in the zone. =)
did y'all watch pleasantville last night? nice right??? hahahha. mun hui said it's not. :/. i like ok! hahahaa esp that line.. "i had a great day" orr.. was it good? hmmmm.. hahha. i hope i have a good/great monday. hahah. i'll make it good =)) never fear hahah
oh. i'm convinced that i'm an entertainer?? hahah and that "jobs" offers alws ALWAYS come knocking msged in like at night. HAHA. like i dont know laa. so FINE lah. hahha cannot slp then msged me asking me to entertain y'all, LAH. hahhaha
oh and the chinese show also!! did you watch?? so funny ok! hahaha. i was laughing ok! hahhaha. my sister was like "stupid la" then "HAHAHAHA".
i broke my mom's bowl :/ and i thought she was gonna scream SCREAM cos she was like beside me when i dropped it?? it was like a freeze frame from a movie pls. i looked at her, she looked at me. phoo. hahhaha but she didnt. i was hmmm... flabbergasted? nah, not to that extend. hahah i was just shock. all she said was "open the door bigger next time". oh ok? hahhaha.
did y'all watch "the land before time" just now?? i screamed when i saw it ok!! hahah my favourite cartoon! hahah i Love spike pls! hahha easy life. just eat. hahahah i have like all the collection! dvds. hhahah. i STILL rmb the words k! hahahha my sis was like, "dont need to watch la! it's irritated if you're gonna say every line before them". hahahaha. then i said to her "oh no no no no no". she gave me that blank look ok!! hahahah.
rmb the red cartoony book? where i used to write poems/writings in them? i lost it. grr, i think i have? cause i cant find it. ahhh! sad. hahha.
i drew a line
forced a smile
and waved goodbye
that part of me can never face any of you again
pple do change right? and yeah, dont deny it cause you have too. but it's harder to change back let alone if you want others to come back. i'm refering to no one here pls cause last night right, i sort of rmb what cheryl said which left me speechless and guilty. i didnt know that i've changed THAT much. it feels the same to me.. i THOUGHT at least i'm for the better. but "no no no no no". i tried today, to feel like/be THAT me? does it makes sense? heck. feel so retarded pls. hahah. i dont know the difference pls except then i was __________________________? now, i'M ______. eh! cheryl fucking frank pls! and i hate it when pple say, "i hope/wish/prefer you then". DOTS! i never know what to do when they said that. i mean like haha? so queer and damn auto i'll have that plastic-smile and come up with some shit excuses to leave..
oh i drew today. hahha. missed that feeling. =) left it in pencil, black and white. ahhaha cause like y'all know, i can NEVER color. hahha i can choose but i cant color it myself. hahha the strokes wont be nice? i dont know la. hahah.
trying to make FULL use of every s left till sch start.
/silencer
oh buy me a silencer pls! hahhaha. you know?? that black gun?? that no sound when u shoot??? i want! hahahha!
phoo. 1 more day till sch reopen. scream? hahah cant wait pls!
i'm so happy pls! ate alot of choclate today. hahah.
sent alot alot of new year msg ytd hahha die. ahha. elis msged at like 2plus? asked me to entertain her?? and demanding her present?? she's scary ok and i dont know how come i'm her nightmare??? mun hui got her pay today!! annnnd.. nat scold me again!!! andd.. ahhh i cant rmb alr.. hahah.
lily as in 3a's lily is so funny ok. msn with her ah can die. hahha. ok so i'm pos to change my pword again. hahah MUST include her name and it must be FIRST. hahahaa and she's not humble. haha.
didnt sleep last night again. hahhah was talking/msging all the way. i was soo awake okay. hahah i dont know why. then we played big 2 and apparently i cheated??? cos i alws got the 2 of spade?? dots. retarded. hahha. oh we made spaghetti ard 3plus?? hahha and it turned out horrible!! HAHAH! then sue cooked maggie. hahha 6 packets!!! hahha.
there's a scratch on my hand pls. hahha cause of... i dont know? so weird okay. didnt realise i had that until like er... when i saw it?? ha. i'm high. hahah.
had a blast ytd. hahha.didnt really had a "proper" count down cos we were talking and talking and talking and realised that we missed it hahah until meiyi and xuan msg came. hahah. cheng played pool with marc last night. HAHA. total thrashing pls. hahah like what was the score again cheng? hahhaha. she's gonna "train" to beat marc. hahah. "never give up, never surrender right?" hahaha
ohyeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARC! hahah doubt she'll see this cause didnt tell her the new pword. hahah.
oh want to know smthg funny? both my sisters, 21 this year, arent allowed to watch nc 16 shows. HAHAHAH cause they didnt bring their ic and that lady didnt believe them that they're 21. hahaaha. was laughing my head off when they msged me. hahah
secondly, my uncle's back! hahah told you he's ok! hahhaa
lastly, realised that i've NEVER apologised to my mom before. haha ok lah, to my dad too. not sure if i've ever said "sorry" to my sis? weird. hahha. my mom was like, "typical. you NEVER apologise to me what... and i dont expect one now".
cant find the writings that i wrote last time. the one that had "pave the way" at the end... shitt. cos that's what i am now.
"today's the first day of 2005. whatever happened in 2004 was the past. that year will never come again however, memories can be brought forward. let's be selective for once... better still, let's forget everything and start anew. hello? i'm karmila.. and YOU are?" ----> hahah. cant get it out of my head. hahahahah
i cant write like last time anymore eh! tsk. hahah. i cant rhyme anymore.. ahh.. hahhaha. partner said that i need to get in touch with my inner self?? HAHA.
//pave the way
.:me:.
.:wishingfor:.
.: scream :.
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karmila
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30th April 1989
4 saint clare'04
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