Saturday, August 14, 2004

shh... i'm gonna take advantage of the fact that you cant highlight the words on my blog.. hahhaa...

i dunno.. think THIS is stupo. what kind of relationship is this?? you dun even have time for me.. think this is pathetic. rather be single? i'm having doubts again.. hate when this happen.. then again.. i cant live without her.. without stacy tay. kinda ironic dun you think? cant live without her but like now?? we rarely talk or go out... hahahaa. peculiar.

didn want to msg her first ytd. i cant be bothered anymore.. why must i always go to her FIRST? why must i talk to her FIRST? why must i msg her first? i dun care anymore.. i dun. i really dun.. i dun see where this goes.. all i see is an end..

i really love her.. i really do.. i think? the 4days break was just horrible.. felt like someone someone stabbed my heart and ran away.. leaving me there waiting for death... welcoming death.. kkk, think i'm morbid. hahaa. BUT its true.. never been soo happy.. eversince i met her.. BUT now.. think she's too busy.. for all this shit.. maybe i shldn disturb her.. shldn come in her way..

didn bring my fone out.. hahaa. kept imagining of life without you but hahaa you alws come in my mind.. hahaa. all the stupo funny thing we did............. i really cant live without you. i really love you... i really do...

/unseen words...

i told you at 10:10 AM

morning? dots

kkk, think smthg's wrong with my computer cos everything uber BIG.

ytd was rather~ interesting...

oh somebody committed suicide just across the street from my flat last night, str8 away after the ndp thing.. hahahaa.. my mom heard... wait, pratically my FAMILY heard the 'pi-ak' sound excluding me.. hahhhaa.

oh... pang's an ass la... dots..

back, COS i was happily listening to the radio and doing the lit assignment when my mom was like, "lala! lala!". hahhaa.. her back hurts so she asked me to check if someone jumped down. hahaha i JUST stared at her and walked away... thought she was kidding [nthg new] but HEY, i still wont want to see that dead covered up in red shiny liquid body k.. dont want to have nightmares... dont want to scare myself. hahhaa..

asked my sis to "entertain" my mom & went back to lit. HAH. my sis started shouting... ok~.. so my mom was right.... dots.. ambulance and all came.. hahhaa they wanted to go down and see okay!!! dots.. oh i asked my sis if "it's" a boy or girl and she was like, "how the hell wld i kno?? that person didn go i'm a girrrl or i'm a boooy"... dots... they wanted to go down and see okay!! to see if its a boy or girl... dots.. why?? why on earth wld u want do that??? then u'll have THAT picture stuck in your head rite?? den u'll be afraid and all... right?? RIGHT?? dots..

yea and the next time they go home late... 1 of us have to go down and wait for them... dots.. crazy rite?! rather not know and lead a happy worry-less life man... dots.. hahahaa

oh.. think that person is a chinese cos like they saw chinese pple crying? hmmm... k.. i said "they" bcos i cant see! hahaaa oh yeah... i broke my specs.. hahhaa. my 5th spec that is.. hahhaah..

kkk.. i came to a conclusin that THAT person was having problems, tak boleh tahan<--- cheng! note the spelling!.. anymore or JUST that he/she cant face to see himself/herself malu at the singapore idol. oh oh.. he/she cld oso want to "add" or contribute smthg since he/she cant participate in ndp rite? cos blood is red... right? hahahaa..

i miss
[you]

/confused

i told you at 9:38 AM

i'm bored!
i hate the break. its ass boring and all. HAH.

the time pass so sloowly, i want sch to start... then again~ CA twill follow.. darn it.. i'm never satisfied..

oh my fren asked me "why do pple say the word fuck when their angry?" hahhaa... she was like.. "isnt fuck mean doing it" hmmm... yeah and like if u hate the person & you tend to ask the person to "fuck you/off" right? but why wld u want to do it with the person you hate? or can you imagine fucking off? like literally.. fucking off? dots

what the hell am i talking abt??? ignore that text.. i'm bored...

i did something. and i'm sort of regretting it...? dots. nthg new huh? but hey. i'm bored? i need some entertainment/enlightenment...

Am I a freak in the darkness
Or am I a misfit
You speak with opinions
To seek in so deep
But it's alright
Well your just an illusion
Confused by your narrow mind
Reality is up ahead in the distance
But that lack of persistence has left you behind
Now you're reaching for your sanity
Cause you afraid of me, so don't fuck with me
You wanna ask me a question, well I got a question
How much longer can I tolerate this shit
Ego's trip when you're livin' on the flip side
Droppin out of the uterus and die, damn
I see ya pointin' your finga
You stereotype me, cause you don't like me
Well you don't even know me, punk
You don't know me
You stereotype me, cuz you dont like me

did yall watch the grease mania?? hahhaa.. totally. feel like watching grease lightning now.. "oh~ sandy.. baby~ cant you see i..." er.. hahhaha..

oh i love gng to faezah and kiri's blog.. hahah.. kkk, i duno why i'm typing this but heck... oh val~ i'll blog abt you! hahha.. val val val the bimbim.. hahha... kkk...

/dotsYOU

i told you at 4:50 PM

Sometimes it's hard to tell if you should hurry up or slow down. Life is not a race, you keep telling yourself. But then you look around and everyone's wearing brand-new running shoes.

k, i'm bored... lets blog. hahhaha.. oh~ MORNING... dots..

cant believe it... i'm still high.. haaa.. oh announcement!!! sarah tan is MY new holding hands partner!!! hahhahaa just read her blog. hahahaa

kkk. here's an advice. dont sit at the end of the table... i repeat... DONT sit at the end of the table eventhough u might look like a king. DONT. hahhaha especially if that grp is talking abt smthg interesting for example like miss goh & mr yeo & kids.. and the main story teller is someone like dee, a soft speaker... erm oklah.. when she's was "sharing" this she spoke really soft~.. hahhaa and worst of all if you get pple like yw, melissa & pei in the middle.. HAH.. the story chnged when it get to you.. hahhaa.. frm mr yeo had kids to mr yeo have aids??? dots.......

kkk.... that's it for now.. hahhaa... gonna bathe.. bye bye.. till i'm free again?? hahaha.. ignore that..

stupo tiger gonna be away for 3 days... 3!! yesh 3!!! argh.. lets see who can roar the loudest nowww...

oh yesh.. saw pretty ladies ytd.. nat, amanda, yolanda & iris. OH best of all~.. AMANDA gave me a "free" show.. if u look up that is... [grin] hahhaaa..

/STOPturning

i told you at 8:55 AM

glad there's no english lesson. dun have to face that trashbag today. rite.. she's not pin pointing to anyone huh? yeah... not anyone maybe just to cherie and me.. dots. bloody hell. when she scolded us like its totally obvious that she was refering to both of us la. tsk. kept pointing to me.. expecting me to look at her.. and what she said was totally hurting.. lick my rectum la..

had a blast ytd.. everyone was like damn high til her lesson.. HAH.. so what if we're 3c?? huh?apparently she lost her respect for 3c.. dots you la. HAH. guess what?? so did WE lost our respect for YOU. maybe she's just one freaking tcher? and like there's 37 of us? handle that. hahhaa.. cant wait for the next english period.. wait... i'm totally contradicting but hey~.. come to think of it, all the attitude pple are in 3c. hahahaa..

forget the whoole thing.. i dun give a shit abt it anymore.. hahhaha.. her words are meaningless to me since yw had enlightened me by her version of "that scolding".. hahahha..

kkk.. today's FUN. F-U-N. hahhahaa. hmmm... stood up with pei to the back to stand/sing with nat,val,siti,norizan,xuan and so on la.. hahhaha.. the part we duno we just lalala-ing all the way? hahhaa.. was damn high la! hahhaha..jumped and did shits.. hahaha.. cant go in details cos it'll never end..

den went out.. the 10 of us! hahhaha.. scream and scream durin the movie cos sat with cherie. hahhaa she jerked so we scream? hahahha.. grabbed sarah's hand. hahhaha yw& cheng cried! hahhaha.. the story's damn anti climax la. hahhaha.. porcupine monster?? hahhahaa.. kkk. cant stop laughing when talked to shaleen abt it. hahhaa.

oh gtg!!! bye.. to be continue-d hahhaha

/shake-shake open BOOOM

i told you at 5:57 PM

ok.. today is like damn fun la.. hahhaa. everyone's super high. hahhaa.

oh.. natria's scary when she's higghh.. hahhaa. honest! hahaa. so long didn laugh like this with them.. hahaha.

oh i came late cos i missed the train..! not purposely!!! hahhahaa. believe me shaleen & sylvia!! hahhaaa. honest!!

enjoyed every period today including.. mly.. unbelievable rite? hahaah cos shaleen was sitting behind me & everytime i turned, natria had that guilty face on. hahhaa & natria's really freaking me out okay.. hahhaa!

bio's the best! hahhaa. preena totally cant act la. hahhaa.. and and er... i cant rmb alr!! hahhaa. meiyi's not evil today.. hahhaa she taught me maths.. hahhaha..

went out with stacy after sch. hahaha.. she's like totally gone la. she criticised practically everyone & like asked me to be nice?? ohyea... maybe cos she drank coke??? dots. hahaa & her dad gave her this really really nice but expensive watch & she dun trust me to hold it ok. hahha. walked everywhere.. hahhaa we passed the famous amos shop many many times.. hahha and and oh oh! the going up escalator was on the right la den she happily turned to the left and was like, "i told u its upstairs what" anddd she turnned annd saw its going down den she laughed.. dots.. hahhaa.. had a tour. hahaa.

oh wait...


ah girl :
like excuse me??? do u EVEN know me? when did i say i'm chio? HAH. haven u seen the "debate" i had with faezah abt that?? oh wait... why the hell am i explainin to YOU.. ure a freaking waste of air, time & space. hahahahaa. eh AH GIRL ah.. why dont u tag with your true name? oh is that ur real name huh? hahaha. sad man.. what? your parents cant think of a name for you? hahaha.. or just that you dont dare? shoo man.. get the hell away from here. diss your shits somewhere else.. you're not welcome... damn. i'm disgusted with cowards like you.

/roar roar meow meow purrrr

i told you at 6:19 PM

fell aslp during lit. hahaaha. whatever. hahaha.. like u care.. hahha

oh... wait... THankS PEI HAN... she wanted the color to be orange. hahhaa. kkk.. took forever to choose "****" it k.. hahhahaa..

was looking for kiri during maths... dots.. hahahha.

lai meiyi's evill~!!!! think my hand is rough paper is it?? test ink zit?? tsk tsk. hahhahaa. so i'm ur punching bag la??? tsk! evil or evil?? hahhaa.


oh on the way back frm town rite, in bus 7. hahhaha. there was this grp of chapalang girls rite.. hahaha. they wanted to go to sports hall? not sure.. this short hair girl asked them to take bus 7 but she doesn know if it goes to sport hall or not? hahhaa.

1 of them asked pei & i den we're like, "is it near the stadium?" and they dun even know okay!!! hahhaa.. they're gng just to watch guys play. hahhaa so the short hair girl called her friend & her phone was on loud speaker hahhahaa she placed her phone near her ear okay! and like everyone can hear their conversation!! hahhaha. oh and she said she lived in 3 places?? she pointed out to her frens la. think she lived in every part of singapore before la. hahaha.

okay, according to her "phoned" fren.. sports hall is at chinese garden?? and they dunno where is that. hahhaa. pei was like, "chinese garden near boon lay" & that short hair girl repeated what pei said la! dots.. dun act smart la. idiot. hahhaa. and 1 of her fren was like, "eh! all of us can go jurong bird park".. hahhahaa.. taboleh tahan man.. hahha. may be bird park is not in boon lay???? dots?? hahhaha. think she malu-ed her herself den she was like, "eh eh.. we're frm st andrews if anyone ask" HAH?! maybe st andrews an all boys sch???? hahhahahhaa. totally controlling okay! hahhahah

oh & that short hair girl totally repeated pei la cos if she knew where chinese garden was.. they cld have taken mrt rite? since its just 2 stops away from clementi. hahahah. they ended up takin cab. hahhahaa. dots la. hahhaha..

/praying to the pole? hahahha [according to faezah]

i told you at 5:33 PM