kkk.. my computer. hahhaz. better. faster. hah. kkk, by myself.
dad's back!!! muahahhahaz. went out with him today. get new turf shoe. hah! he bought 2 pairs cos he cant decide which 1 to get. hahahz. totally rite?? hahhaz but he's flying off AGAIN on wednesday... like box him arh. so fast...
felt so guilty when i sat next to him... hahhaz. told him abt my maths den he looked-- disappointed. hah! .. yea~ den i just said shitts. arhhhh.. hahhaz. sorry sorry.
kiri : yeshy. cant wait. hahhahaz.
eh~ i feel like blogging smthg.... hahhaz. but nvm..... lay cheng will kill me if i do..
anyhow.. dun y'all jus think that faezah is pretty?? hahhaz. no~ this is not pay back time but yea-- hahahz. suddenly i rmbred her. hahahz. she's pretty rite?? hahhaz. stupo. so pretty for wad?? hahahhaz. totally. box u arh.
//confused
okay~ at muh aunt's place. arghhh i'm irritated. dammit. her computer is fucking slow. I meant uber sl0W anD like arghhh any time it suddenly caps the words and like i have to un-cap LOCK IT> SEE!!!! I DIDN PRESS ANYTI|HING! ARHHHHHHHHH> THAT"S POS TO BE A FUcking fullstop & see the words?? it became smallerr. arghhhhh... cant stand it! shall blog laterr then.. when i reach home!
xuan~ ure my partner in crime.. she's my evil partner... dun be like that... dots..
hah! think-- NO~... lay cheng IS evil~. roarr. the head is mine!! cant believe she's bringing camera to "expose" shaleen & i in skirts... like only an evil person could come up with that idea, ritte?? had fun on msn with you. hahahz. cracks me up. hahhaz. my mom thinks i'm crazy cos she walked in & i was smiling when we're arguing abt MY man. hah! mine top, urs bottom! agree?? good! deal! hah!
cant wait for tuesday! hah. the root philosophy awaits...
hey loser. hah. happy chanting man. nice spot though. hah.
suddenly i rmbred that. hahahz. amusing. kkk. shalln be evil. hey~ evil partner! must wear skirt, okay? muahahhahaz. must come in FULL attire. hahahz.
i duno what to do. i'm still confuse. arhhh. like--
kkk. craps. hmmmm.. ohya..
05 :
hey hey. you know who you are. their words dont mean a thing. dun get all fire-ry/tensed up, kz? proof them wrong. hell~ you know your better than that. hehz. i know you are. so yea.. just let it pass. she's the stench. let it pass. take it as a joke? amusing you after all those exams. hhaa. anyhow, you get what i mean. hehz. lurve you lots.. now, go train.
[she] msg-ed me last night. muahahhahaz.
ohmy. hahahhaz. just found out smthg on muh keyboard. hahahz. it says "WARNING: Some experts believe that the use of any keyboard may cause serious injury. Consult statement on the back of this keyboard". hahahhahaz. and there really is at the back!! hahahhaz. kkk. i'm just bored. roarrr.
//dont trust. dont believe. it's safer.
hmmm... having a blast on msn with shaleen & sylvia. hahhaz. kkk.
mrs wong called me ytd. hahahz. nvm. there's nthg to blog abt or rather dun feel like bloggng anyway.
hmmm... think we're breaking up? dun u think so? pls dun. must stand/stay unite! hahz.
hey hey~ jus found out that laycheng is coming on thursday too. hahahz. totally. think their gonna luff their heads off watching us play. hahhahaz. totally. gonna malu ourselves. hahahz.
//go find peace lah [u] freak
so~ i'm at home. pon-ned today. hahhaz so did karteka & karverna rite?? hahahz. totally. cos my OTHER cousin's getting married today see... hahahz. that's a good excuse, rite? hahahz. anyhow, i'm telling the truth. hahhaz. whatever~.
hmmm~ my left wrist hurts. hell~ it's swollen. arghhh after the tuesday's trng. stupo. what the hell did i do wrong? hahahz. cant rmb getting injured or wacked at the wrist though. arhhh. [irritated] thought it would have gone away by ytd but no~~, it's still hurting shaleen!! roarrr.
everyone~... i meant E-very-one was pissed off with dashini ytd. hah! like totally rolled our eyes at her. including partner! hahahz. thought partner was nice loh. hahahz. guess i think too highly of her. hahahz. think pang's such an ass loh. hahhaz. feel like killing her sometimes. hahhaz. in a good way though? made me wait 4 2hours! fine~ hah... i'm just bored lah. waiting for my sis to get ready & u know~ them... it's like waiting forever..
arhh.. thought there's no more tournament & there's like 3 next week. the 1st, 3rd & 6th june. roarr. mr balbs been trng us for physical BUT what abt stickwork?? like-- i cant hit anymore... whatever lah.. can go pluck the rubber on the pitch lah. arghhhh.
nette, pei, partner :
this is a GENTLE reminder... u promised on thursday! muahahhaz.
//hurry back
had a blast in sch. stupo devaki~ argh... hahahhaz.
shaleen & i in our own world again. hahahz. didn listen to coach. hahhaz. did our own things when asked to do another. hahahhz. think the sec1s very hyper. think they full of crap, esp THOSE few.. arh. crazy~...
ANYWAY~ what the hell did i do to offend [you] loh?? arh.. like maybe i/we SHOULD be the 1 who is pisst or be doing all the diao-ing?? like~ who's the 1 who spreads shiitt abt me?? & heree [you] are diao-ing me, like countless time. totally lost track. hmmm... [you] hate muh clique rite? that's like totally obvious... like anything else? after today, maybe jus maybe we found the reason to hate [you] back? at 1st there was none, BUT NOW... arhhhhhhh.
07 & i happily vented our anger on the way home. like arhhh.. dun go, dun.
//sampan
jus realised smthg while playing with the 3a gurls. hahahz that~ no one trust/believe me when i played bluff. hahahz. totally. like every freaking card i placed down~, surely 1 of them will turn it to check. roarrr. hahahz. but hack! hahahz. i didn lie at all.. hahhaz. i won!! i woN!! hahahz.
hmmm... oh my~.. didn kno heart attack could be so~ panic-ky? hahahz. goodness. hahahhaz. played with yolanda, nat, yw, devaki, marcia, xuan & amanda. HAH! fun~.
like everyone was so~ tensed up cos yw kept hurrying us & there were like so many false alarm hahhaz cos yea.. hahhaz. either 1 of us shouted to slow down or jus wave2 &-- all of us thought that it was heart attack time. hahahz. den jus throw the cards in the air. haiya~ i duno how to describe lah. hahahz. but it was fun & funny. hahhaz. luffed so much. hahhaz. very noisy too. duh. hahahz & once-- hahahz. marcia was pos to beat, rite? den she took so~ darn long cos she kept luffing & we kept pulling our hands back.. so i shouted "arhhh!" all of a sudden.. den omg~ hahhahahaz... cant get the scene out of my head..! hahahz.. amanda, yolanda, yw, devaki & xuan jumped up. hahhahz! goodness! cant helped it! hahahz. arhh.. hahahz.. sorry2.. hahahz..
hmmm.. dionne is giving me free consuling. hahahz. kkk. yes madame. hahhaz. totally
trng tmr.. shucks.. arhhh..
//confused
hmmm~ had fun today. ha ha ha. seriously la. hahahhaz. had trng in the morning. roarr. pos to start at 0830 but mr balb reached at 9plus. stupo. if i had known~ i'll take my time cos i was late see... i could have spend the time enjoying the scenery. hahahhaz. NOT.
you kno wad caroline said?? cos 2balls were missing & i asked them to go find. so she was like maybe it went in the gents & she asked me to go see cos i'm daring?? kkk. i asked her whether she's sure that it went in the gents... & u kno wad she said?? she was like "yar~ 2 balls wad!?".. omg!!! dammit. my juniors are sick in the mind! hahahz. den shaleen & i were speechless. hahahz.
shaleen & i were the only seniors. oh my~.. that sounded so~ old. hahahz. kkkz & we were in our own world. hahahz. honest! hahahz. kept banging dora though. hahahz & i think we changed. hahhaz cos we actually talked when mr balb was talking & we ACTUALLY went off to juggle or balnce the ball on our stick when balb was talking to the team. hahahhaz. was juggling2 then i caught him staring at us when i looked up... so we panic & ran in. hahahz. goodness. hahhaz.
sylvia waited for us at the bus stop 4like 45mins. hahahz. cos she had piano lesson earlier on. then we went town to eat cos had to be back by 2pm. hahhaz. our stomach hurts cos we luffed too much. found out smthg though. hah THAT sylvia cant defend herself. hahahz. shaleen & i happily bang-ed her cos she cant defend herself OR if she TRIES to defend... it'll only make matters worst. hahahz. she'll just bang herself back. countless time. hahahz. cant rmb any now. jus happily2 shoot. hahhaz.
we saw this theresian in her home clothes at the bus stop behind cine. omg!! she wore her jeans so~ low that her grand canyon... her butt hole can be seen. hahahs. she walked pass us. i was totally shocked. i stared at it cos i wanted to confirm it was her grand canyon see. [grin] hahahz. the weirdest thing was that when i turned.... dots... shaleen was also staring at it. hah! i jumped up. hahahz cos i tot i was the only 1 hahhaz. i wanted to ask shaleen but she too was "mesmerised" by it. hhahaz. her mouth was opened. hahahz & oh ya~ sylvia oso!! she-- hahhaz asked whether we saw it. hahahz. totally can & according to sylvia... that gurl should tan her butt cos it's too fair. hahahz.
afte buyin the stuffs jean wanted... we went back to sch. hah! jean said enter by the carpark gate so we listened to shaleen cos ACCORDING to shaleen it's the back gate. we walked & realised that it's the FRONT! roarr.. so we happily walked to the front. hah! when 2 metal balls collided... they bang hahhaz [inside joke].
and AGAIN sylvia, shaleen & i were in our own world when decorating the lighthouse. hah & the best thing is that--- we duno wad's the occasion tmr. hahahz. gr8. hahahhaz. so many ulu-fied/ stupo thing happened & we luffed damn loud. darn it. cant rmb any now. hahahz. kkk. will try to recall & slowly tell yar. hahahz. but we were in our own world lah. hahahz. 1st time had so much fun.. not concerning abt others. hahahz & slyvia happily banged herself. hahahz. wth rite?? oh my-- hahhaz.
hey bimbangers got a new member! it's shaleen. hahahaz. she's officially in the clan. hahahz & she came up with a new nick for "ahem"... it's puzzle piece. hahahz. kkk. tell yar the meaning on mon. hahahz. or jus asked her, pei, nat or lily lah. hahahz. got the inspiration frm the jigsaw lion outside taka. hahahz. so there's 14 in the clan cos 2 are outta hereee. yup.
//typo
kkk. so tmr must be in sch by 1645 rite? the thing start at erm 1930 like that?? hahahz. kkk. cant wait~.. hahahz.
//promise on monday i'll start [09]
sch was alrite. nthg much. got back mly. hahahz. feel like slapping miss siti though. roarr.
anyhow~... hate trng today. hah! & guess what?? hahahhaz. michelle, shaleen, sylvia, ruth & i cant hit. hahz. like totally missed the ball or it goes-- everywhere. shucks. felt so bad. kkk. we're werkin on it! [honest]
hmmm... oh my-- cant forget what happened today! hahhaz. sylvia got wack by the ball! hahz. she sound so confident & had that into-proud-of-herself face when shaleen had the ball. hah! oh my~ hahahhaz. i guess she tilted her stick cos the ball flew up to her face when she trapped it.. hahz &-- hit her forehead. den she sat down & cover her face cos alot of pple saw & they're luffing. hahz. totally. & her face was all red. hahz BUT she's alright. hahahz we're immune to injuries. hahahz.
AND i'm so~ proud of myself! hahahz. run like hell today during trng... roarrr. 24 rounds. argh. had the 'mind over body' going on & i argued with mr balb. hah so did everyone. hahz & e 4of us compete with dora cos accordin to balb she ran the fastest.. which is like so not true! it's ruth loh & he dun believe that i ran 12 rounds & shaleen ran 11 rounds in 15mins cos apparently dora ran 12 & apparently i cant beat her?! like not! hah! beat her the next 10 & 5mins run! hah! so did sylvia! hah!
radio partner :
was looking for you like a zillion billion time. kept forgetin that u had that workshop thing. roaarr. did THE dumest thing & other stupo minor shit. hah. damn it! wher are you??? got that
stupo look frm [her]. shldn listen to [[her]] loh. shld jus think abt my *r**e.
fatty ass :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU OLD FART!!
if [[[the person]]] u've been avoidin & cursing abt dot dot dot... [[[she]]] too have~ been cursing & spreading shittss abt you.. suddenly smiled & talked to you....... would you find smthg amiss?.. scarry
hmmm... today was alrite la. hah. spend $$ like nobody business. arhhhh. went to make ic 1st. eh! i tell u arh-- pei 4ever see me malu myself can. arhhhh. hahhaz. shaln go into that.
then went out with the 2nd batch. hmmmm... today like practically banging each other loh. especially lily arh. bang bang bang me. my partner enjoyed herself today cos lily kept bangin me. nvm--- u wait tmr. [grin] hahahz. then nat & marcia kept attackin each other. think marcia walked like those rich2 pple with class. hahahz & my partner's evil. think i'm gonna murder her toooo...
got irritated at swensens so i msged 1/2 chair to distract myself frm blowing. hah thnks.
everything i do is wrong loh. partner kept scoldin me when i look outside. lily happily bang me & blablabla. arhhh. hahahhaz. the weirdest thing was i held lily's hand 4 awhile den i let go-- u kno wad she said to me???? she said "fine la! cling for awhile den let go"... ok?? 1st time eh pple said that. hahahz. think she very scary... dots. hahahaz.
mel & i were in our own world. hahahaz. while shopping like we talk3ed den suddenly we lost them. hah! and mel's adopted! den we entertained ourselves by tryin on the skirts & top. oh my-- nette picked the top so tight & low cut. hahahz BUT the purple skirt we chose.. oh my-- so NICE... arhh.. pei, mel, nette & i fell deeply in-lurve with it. hahahaz. i'll be back. hahhaz.
you kno the "thing" that i've been waiting for "it" to happen??
it has... sort of glad it did though... i duno why... jus glad..
//in this war, the young men do the dying. the old men do the talking... ignore the politics [troy]
couldnt sleep last night. woke up like a zillion billion time. felt so guilty... but wad wrong have i done?? had nightmares after nightmares.. shall not got into it...
anyhow... it wont spoil my day. hahahz. got date with mel. hahahz. she wants me to wear skirt loh. hahhaz. msged2 with her. she said i must act gurl?? like how to act? i AM a gurl! hahahz. kkk. by myself. hahahz.
hahhaz. just rmbred hector's motto : "honour the god. love your women and defend your country". hahhaz. ok?? hahhaz. cool rite? like we're what-ing when we heard that. hahhaz
then when the greek lost the 1st round.. the egoistic king was like "go home drink some wine. make love to your wife, the war will begin tmr". hahahz. i think this show totally degrands women loh.
it doesn bother me anymore. shoot! 1/2 chair.. argh. die die die.
oh oh~ my cousin is the grtest! he gave me the adidas jacket. the white one with red lines?? hohooo... kkk.
//bug off u bugger or i'll swap you
is today the greatest or is today the greatest?? hahz totally. b4 the mly paper, jes TRIED to read the mly words. HAH! 1 phrase was pos to be ayam terlepas tahi tangan terbau or smthg like that BUT she pronounced it such that the meanin is chicken cockroach shit hand flower if u translate it directlyla! hahhahaz. nat & i was like WHAT?? grabbed the paper to check. mly was easy. oklah... for me? i can ans them. hah & bio, i finished like so fast. hahahaz. like they're frm tys. hahahz. rmbred the ans. hahahz.
then went to town with half the bimbang clan. with pei, yw, wei xuan, val, cherie & jes. yup yup. jes was totally sick throughout the journey. she wanted to suck all of val's blood & others. hmmm.. wei xuan is my partner in crime! hahahz. she's helpin me plan the murders. hahahz.
think jes very poor thing. hahahz. she tried to lie & get everyone support. wanna bluff someone but somehow we kept 'correcting' her den she's like-- "cant u all just lie??"
& val tried to stuff/finish her meal. hahahz. she had the pitiful dont-make-me-eat-anymore-pls face. hahahz. so cuuttte. hahahz. jes took her foto. check her blog out la. hahahz. val is soooo blur loh. hahhaz.
guess who we [cherie & i] saw?? we saw-- saw charles loh! i spotted him 1st then turned 2cherie, she was on her fone with her dad, den in a split second, cherie saw him den both of us auto slide down the chair.. like lower ourlselves. hah! like cartoon. bought food & all den happily eating & he walked pass again & he turned & tiptoed. hahahz. den we hide behind the wall. hahhaz. wei xuan said we damn cartoon. hahhaz. argh~ so many thng happened! i'm lazy to blog but i kno jes was freakingly banging val & cherie. hahahz.
den we went up to buy tickets for troy. hahahz. we got the 1st row. hahahz. den we draw-tickets. hahahz. & guess wad?? yw was like... "EH! I GOT TWO TICKET?! WHY ARH??". we looked at her. maybe cos the person pos to tear 1 side off?? argh~.. wth. hahahz. so funny.
so the arrangement was.. wei xuan, yw, me, cherie, jes, pei then val. hahhaz.
at 1st.. jes was "raping" cherie cos we left them alone... in the dark... while we went to the toilet. omg! i dun want to sit with yw & cherie again! they happily asked me wad happened & i was tellin them that i duno, i haven watch yet. hahahz.. got so pissed & made up some parts. hahahz & yw HAPPILY believed me. hahahz. den later on she happily scolded/beat me-- say i tot i tot her bla3. hahahz.
and yw alws luff at the wrong time! hahahz. like total silent den she'll luff. i think smthg's wrong with her. hahahz & cherie kept makin all the 'sound' when archilles was naked. hahhaz. ohya! val was so pissed off with the guys sittin beside her that she bang the fries & shifted closer to pei. hahhaz.
troy's totally cool loh. so much better den van helsing! hahahz. cos 1-- jes, pei, val & xuan cried like so many2 time. me & cherie would too if YW didn luff at all the sad scene!! that heartless creature!
& you would so be angry with paris cos he's so sissy loh! "i gave up my pride. i gave up my honour to live." hah! pei bend forward to look at me can that part.. & yw nudged me loh. and cos of helen of troy & prince paris, there's a war & ARCHILLES & HECTOR DIED!! argh~ & those 2buffaloes survive?!!! the king of troy also die loh! argh~.. hahahz.
afte the movie ended, we're like damn auto. stood up den complained/cursing. like wth! how can the sissy guy live & my [grin] 2 bfs die?? hahahz. was complainin & arguin. hahahz. we wanna watch it again. hahhaz. so nice! hahahaz. esp the part where hector & archilles fought. omg. hahahaz. all of us was like so tensed up. hahahz cos we dun want any of them to die. hahahaz. yw was under her bag & she was like "haiyo. be careful. dun fight. argh. stop." hahahz. goodness..
took neo afte that. hahahz. never felt so tired afte takin them. hahahz. val, i think she's attrated to the camera. hahahz. had to pull her back like so many times. hahahz. i was in charge of val while jes was in charge of pei. hahhaz. like erm nd alot of balncing. hahahz. see how we deco it. hahahz. cheechee. hahahz.
pei felt so violated. hahahz.
oya~ on the bus. argh~ so much to blog. hahahz. tmr la kz? hahahz. frens starting. hah! off.
tmr 2nd part. hahahz. outta with 2nd batch of the clan. lily, nat, nette, pei, xuan, marcia, mel & i duno? hahahz. cant wait!
lucks nette, mel, lily, sarah, dee, shaleen, kiri, cheryl & blablabla~ hahahhaz. happily! hahahz. i'm high~.
//hohoo.. who r u again?
ok. joan's angry with me. BUT the date's not confirm! most probably postpone or-- [honest]. not doing this on purpose. yea-- whatever u said at ur blog's totally true. and yea-- sorry for being such a dissapointment...
kiri kiri! ure family's not that bad! hahahz. mine's farr worst.
i invite myself ok?? hahahz.
feeling damn pissed off with--. i duno why. argh~ dammitla. shldnt have gone online... shldnt have read it... fine~ whatverr.. screw all of that.
think positive : monday & tuesday outta with bimbang clan.
//jus when i tot i did the right thing..
there's a piece of you that's here with me
it's everywhere i go
it's everything i see
when i slp i dream
& it make me fine
i could make believe that ure herre
tonight
hohooo. ytd was a fuckthup day. ignore it. it was jus at the moment. i was too angry to think rationally. argh~... be back. my sis wanna use the come. blasting music really loud~. hahahz. yup their scoldin me. hahahz. hack~
talked to pei like for 2hrs ytd. hahahz. didn realise it was that long. totally. luffin abt EVERYthing. yea. think she's the best. like practically everyone turned to her to talk or vent their anger. hahaz. like our punching bag & she wont take it seriously either. hahahz. kkk. better stop later-- zoom! she's smiling.. all up there.. hahz totally can imagine it. tsk tsk. hahaz. wink?
realise that my sis are leavin in a month's time. think i'm slow. takin them fer granted. not appreciatin them until it's too late. hell~ i've been takin EVERYthing for granted & now i'm missin it all. haiz. shhh... not gonna say this to them. hahz. later their heads will go pop. hahahz. cant imagine me sayin "i love u" to them. hahahaz. i'll jus break. hahhaz. there's a line. hahahz.
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ok, back. have yal seen the britney videoclip? the everytime 1? hahaz. lk jus plain running here & there. Duh-ump. cant believe it was THE song durin taman. hahhaz. i meant 3c's. think it's too slow... ohya~ den did u hear the fast 1? the totally techno-ly 1? imagine she, britney, dancin techno. HAH! kkk.. whatevver. wad song shld i download?? hmmm...
i forgot to what it feels like
to feel normal
to be normal
and i forgot to what it would taste like
the way it taste right
lastest update abt hockey-- hhahaz. nobody's going. heehz. totally. shaleen's goin overseas... somewher? hehz. i 4got. sylvia's going bangkok or somewhere... ruth's dun wanna go or she's not going. von's out of the team. michelle? haven ask. hahahz. me? me?? hmmm... not going either. hahahz. totally. going perth AGAIN, i think? tt's wad mom said anyw. blablabla. houses.
ure my gurl, i'm ur man
i dun care if we live in a garbage can
im ure man, ure my gurl
i'm so glad that we are pals
guess wad? dad's gone! argh~ he flew off last night to gawwd knos wher. stupo lk 2days only eh den another business trip. [irritated] didn even say "bye" to me. hardly talked to him those 2days cos i was either studyin or slept early. he'll be back in a month's time..
i dun wanna kno if u played me
keep it on the low
cos my heart cant take it anymore
hahhaz. nat said that song is scarry. hahahz. yea-- abit la. the background. hmmm. i'm waitin for [it] all to happen. i duno why. it's lk diggin my own grave. kkk. by myself.. nvm. smthg's missing. i duno what.
wher are u
and i'm so sorry
i cannot slp
i cannot dream tonight
i nd somebody and alws
hohoo.. guess what? smbody downloaded the sch of rock song. hahahz. if u wanna be a tcher's pet. hahahz. kkk. [gone] totally. kkk. 2more papers. bio & mly. concentrate den buh-bye. cant wait 4monday & tues. hehz. totally. kkk. gtg study. wont be on tmr. i hope not. hahahz.
tmr will be a better day
they said it too many time
now ilm startin to doubt that
and time heal all wounds? but-- wad if smeone stabbed u & turned the knief 360?? cld that wound heal too?.. no-- i wont whine.
//memories are just a blur
is it just me or is time passing really really fast?? hahhaz
my mom wanted to box my face. hahahz cos my hp bill is rockety high. hahahz but dad's back so means... she CANT! hahahz!
//ive messed up
thought nat said "tell....." so i told & ended up she said "diao.....". argh~ m sorry! m really sorry. [roar] was totally thinkin abt stuff. was lookin ard 4cherie to return the pen & i didn even kno that nick was actually [her] so yea... m sorry. went up to apologize cos i dun want u to be angry see & further more u had that killer look on ur face... sorry again.
maths was alrite. i can do em BUT lit.. my gawd lit! [scream] hah m damn pissed of with myself. no mood. totally didn concentrate. argh~ was thinking abt "stuff".... to think i had the time to write stuffs & actually thought abt that! fuckla. wth! will nv 4give myself 4this. argh~~ showed the writn to yw & guess wad?? she threw it away cos she said that i wrote "...throw it away... cos it belongs there..." lk okkay~?? shall not go into it..
//read my msn nick.. it's 4u
[neutral] went 2make ic with me & smthg happened [malu-ated] so it was cancelled & on the way back she said i was jus plain stubborn & egoistic & she's not the only1 who said tt 2me..! hah hate that "e-go-is-tic" word! that's the only word i've been hearing! stubborn?? yea-- sometimes..? hey lk maybe u too?? BUT egoistic?? no~ i'm not, dammit! "maybe u shld start talkin"... argh another famous line they said to me! maybe jus maybe i have??! and y must i start?? to think some of them are actually havin the same prob & they actually said- that- to me...? lk excuse me?? y dun u start too?? stupo-- & worst of all! some ulu2 pandan lk nv talk to em b4 said i'm egoistic & its my fault..?? sick & tired of makin the 1st move to talk or sms or whatevver! argh~.. m jus plain laZy now.. "awkward"... another stupo word..
//it has become so pointless to me [9]
oya-- & hockey's havin a johore trip or other word torture & i dun wanna go. not intendin to go. hahhaz. doubt silivia & shaleen want to anyway. hah michelle said she dun. hahahz. totally. wad's happenin to hockey? nthg tt's wad. hah dun give a damn abt hockey anmore.. nxt year, it'll b JUS a cca hah cos jean, hema, liyi are all gone... GONE!
//blamin myself
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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hack this aint true. stupo-- hahahhaz. took the test frm anjana's blog. hahhaz. she's another 1 of those who's full of anger. hahahz. totally.
kkk... study. hahhaz
Apathy, well I can say your lucky, in some ways.
You see Apathy is no emotion, basically you
don't care. But that does not make you a bad
person. Some of my friends are apathetic and I
love them, but it wouldn't hurt to care a
little more. Trust me life hurts, most people
who are apathetic do it cause they were hurt.
But don't worry, life is pain, its also
pleasure. Good luck. (please vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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hahhaz. i took it again. hahahz. cant concentrate 4lit. m driftin. hahahz. m blog hoppin. hahahz. kkkk~ concentrating.. bye bye.. 4 real now [grin].. hahhaz. wad rubbish can this stupo test. hahahz. cant get the happy2 1. hahahz. alwz givin me this 2. argh~ kkk. gonna cheat now. hahahz.
ytd was hell! a maths! argh~ felt lk i cld blast offf any moment & i think my class very violent. hmmmm-- afte effect of maths?? hahz. lk durin the paper... lk u can hear stompin of feet or bangin of tables or grumblings. hahahz & there was like this "war" btwn ms lee & mrs chua. hahahz. ms lee rollED her eyes at mrs chua lk a zillion billion time & she gave ms chua that oh so fake-cos-ure-lame-&-i'm-forcing-myself-to-luff-doubt-u-notice-it-anw-cos-ure-dump luff when mrs chua made a so called joke. i pointed 3rd finger un-intentionally at mrs chua when she asked us to shut up & lucky-thing wei xuan's head covered chua's view & germs was luffin. germs called chua a bitch when she was lk infront of her can! lk practically everyone was annoyed with chua. took 15mins to collect the damn papers. like argh~ faster pls!? stupo-- and my class & ms lee was lk grumblin2 & diao-ing her... hahz. so funny.
hmmm... i think band 4 have to be taught in the audi alr. hahahz.
yay baybeh~ hahhaz. geog was a breeze. hahhaz. totally. luck was on muh side. hahhaz. totally ignored the aeroponics. didn wanna study that-- & focused on the plantation and the rice ipo. hahahz. so proud of myself & apparently we dun have do ANY calculation... hah, lily thnks anw.
lurve that ocean avenue song by yellowcard. hahhaz. nat & i kept listenin & our fav line is "night~". hahahz. kkk.. by myself.
went 2eat with kiri, pei & nette. wah~! almost died. hahhaz. like mcm fountain. kkk.. other time. nd to study. hehz.kiri kiri kiri. nette said she look like a doll. a freaky doll. hahahz. kkk. other time! other time! tmr la. hahhaz. 4more papers to go-- no actually 3, mly's not counted. hah! most propably i'll jus stone. hmmmm... lit. kkk. think kiri's full of anger. hahahz. lk she practically hate every-- tcher & her classmates. hahahz.
//disappearing...
rushed out today. woke sis up in the mornin to teach physic last time. didn have the time 2use contacts cos kuti was msgin2 me. hahahz so grabbed my specs & apparently me.. wearin specs became a big thing to talk abt. like ok~? had 2say like a dozen times that i was rushin & no-- didn change specs.lk totally karmila wears specs dun nd to ask2 pple..
shaleen TRIED 2summarise e topic abt the tamil tigers. hahhaz. she talked2 den give me that stare.. that direct look into ur eyes den smile... hah! confirm she's lost. hahhaz
3B, 3C & 3D got scoldin in the mornin. hahahz. was dicussin abt phy. hahhaz. so funny. asked nat how many kg is 1N or smthg lk that & apparently... esther, za-bird, mitzi, pei, wei xuan, marcia, shr-bird, kuti & i duno la answered. there's some misunderstandin. newton newton kg kg everywhere. hahahz & all of a sudden cheryl said confidently, "wait! shhh~ w=mg. w is newton & m is kg".. hahahz. den there was like a 2s pause & i was lk "omg~! i didno tht! thnks!".. hahahz. den we luffed & den cher scolded me DEN we got scoldin frm sng. hahahz. i'm scared of mitzi. hahahz. 4ever bang & hit me can. argh~ hahahz.
poor marcia got the scoldin frm sng. hahahz & he was like i hope tmr it will be better & i hope the chairperson wasn involve in the talk. if this continues tmr... i will blame u & the chairperson. hahahz.. oops.. the chair didn talk jus now.. rightt...? [stare] hahahz
ss was alrite. i can write get wad i mean? didn have time to stone. hahahz & physic! omg physics! hahahz. i didn read the question properly!! argh~ hahahz & i happily2 did all 3. argh~ hahahz. totally but nvm. hahahz.
jus sent jes back. she came over to study. hahaz. both were totally beat & decided to "end" ealier than planned. hahhaz. kkk.
totally underestimated wei xuan's evilness. hahhaz.
//cant wait 4exams to be over den 3c can move back down to the kampong area & can disturb the rest.
i think smthg's wrong with e tagboard. hahahz. hack--
erm i fell aslp durin the mly paper! hhahahz. i finished writtin in 1hr leh! hahaz & nat still writin. nvm. i kno la her mly damn power mine is like direct translation can...then dunno wad 2do so i wrote letter to lily and pei. hahahz. slept for 50mins. hahahz. 1st thing i saw when i "woke" up was carol starin at me. argh~ scarrrry... hahahz. turned the other side & saw cherie mouthin "i lurve u" den she blew flyin kiss to me.. hahahz. turn & saw marcia stressin out & val luffin at me. hahahz.
oya~ apparently cherie lied to me dots.. totally ignored her in the mornin then influenced pei & marcia. hahahz. on the "journey" back to class... cherie was stressin on she's not gg. hahahz. so fun. she was like dyin-- tryin to make us... ME believe. hahahz. yes-- i lurve u too.. hahhahz.
u kno wad?? mrs chua sucks loh. hahahz. now i know why she's the hod for geog. no~ knew it last year but it reminded me!! afte collectin the maths paper she asked us not 2move. she was "praisin" our class cos we had the recyclin bin in class, 4e plastic bottles. then she thinks tt nithiya did her job & nithiya was like "ya i bring down the bottle", ya-in all the way. hahahz. val's mouth opened damn big. val been cheated. it was all val's doin! she brought the bottles down [but today pei, val & i] & val set the bin & nithiya got the credit. hahhaz. cant blame nithiya la. hahhaz. but shld have seen val's face. hahhaz. was damn funny. the whole class was like wth-in & luffed.
the weird thing was that mrs chua made the whole class stand afte the paper cos apparently we haven been lookin afte the plants!!! like wth. other class left alr & she gave us a lecture on us not being responsible all bcos of a fuckin plant! argh~ & she taught us to "loosen the soil". suddenly felt so primary school-y. mrs chua made us take our bag a row at a time. blablabla.. went to eat with nette, marcia, jes, pei & nat. luffed alot. stupo--
nat behaves lk so totally innocent holdin the ipod. hahhaz. pei have the twinkle in her eyes when she looked at it & marcia scolded me. totally. nette & i were luffin all the way.. hahahz. ok2. tmr 1st thing pass it 2nat.
wait. if chinese is ah beng & ah lian... while mly is mat & minah.... den indian?? hahahz. wad do they call em?? hahahaz. 3c had this question gg round. hmmmmmmm~.....
watched the midnight movie, van helsing. it ended at 2am. hahhaz. kkkz. i think the movie's such a drag. the startin was nice and all but... it got lamer & lamer. hehz. esp the ending. argh~ cant believe the dracula died jus by 1 bite! and the face in the sky is like so pasir~. hahz okay~? hee. but i like the-- tel ya abt it other time.. nd to study.
oh wow exams start tmr... hahahz. got to go.
bimbim : orh~ dun be like that bim~... dun be angry with me. smile?
cherie: i STILL hate you*! argh~ hee.. not gonna talk to you! NOT.
//an empty heart replaced with paranoia [37]
I hate you CHERIE YEAP!!! i hate you!
argh~ how cld you do this to me!!!!!
hehz. takin break.
see while doing maths, i suddenly rmbred-- remember that day? when yw was "pissed" with me? and i made [you] apologise to her? hehz. you see... suddenly i recalled yw's face. hehz. cant believe she had the 'shock cum shiverin' look when she saw [you] coming. hehz and to think she actually asked [you] how many times [you] ahem cos she was afraid.
yar~ and to think that i'm thinkin abt this now... nno~ m not dwellin-- jus~ remembered that's all... dun worry it'll b erased soon--
elis thnks for lendin it to me. hee.
//totally losing it
Everything was fine until ytd. didn wanna go to sch. dun feel like going.
gonna lock up muh fone in my closet. hahahz. no distraction. hahahz.
been thinkin of gettin a new casing... cos this 1's full of scratches... but doubt any will fit cos i still like this black transparent one... and i cant rmb where i bought it so means-- i cant get the same one...
exams is like on monday & i still dun feel it.
hate this feeling of not wanting to care but ending up caring. damn it. why the sudden thought? yea. totally cher. not that cold.
got to go. hehz. study time.
val :
ignore this type of "anonymous" people. hahahz. just ignore. dun see the point of proving to them anything. nameless freak. hell~ m jus wasting muh time typin abt them. str8?? crk?? whatever u wanna believe..
arh~ val's gone!!! she danced & sang throughout the day. she tried to do the wave thing. cherie & i kept luffing. argh~ she's gone.... GONE.
c her:
i cant! i cant! arh~ feel so loser-fied. m sorry~ m really sorry~... let you down.. hah~! I let muhself down...
feel so guilty. dao-ed so many pple. wasn in the mood to talk. jus wasn. walked pass them when they're callin. drifted off when they're talkin to me. had such a plastered smile. i feel so evil. argh. is this what you wanted bimbangers?? have i passed?? argh~.. hah! and i was even fallin aslp durin the talk. was hidin behind anjana... havin the battle of the eyelid. hhahx.
at least there's smthg to luff abt today. hahahz cos apparently 27 hates me. hahhaz. took her so~ long to hate me. hahaz. mission accomplished. hahahz. thnks anjana. hahahz.
//get off my back
wei xuan flew durin pe. hahhaz. both of us ran too fast.. den-- hahhaz. i'm the sole survivor. hahahz. she flew back okay not really flew~... she fell back. hehz. luffed too hard till no sound. hahhaz and somehow they say i cheated! which is like so not true. yolanda stepped on my stick & i wanted/intended to pick up the stick but picked up the ball instd. AND! not gonna be in the same grp as cherie & yw! never! yw... shout2 for the ball. passed to her... she scream2 & never do anything. jes is violent and amanda was on a mission. all the ulu pandan thing happened! cannot tahan! can just die on the spot.
fuckface gave me that look. hahz. that puppy, i'm so inocent didn say nothin look. dun really care. cant smile to her anymore. hahz! fuckface!
think yiyan damn cartoon. hehz. can tel she uses alot of energy to talk. hahhaz. yiyan! dun admit defeat! bang yw back! bang her... think abt urr pride! dun let yw win.. crush her ego! so mean can yw.. on the way home kept bangin yiyan abt her vertically challenge problem. hahahz and yiyan just luff while pei defend her.
[she] gave me THE talk on the way home. pride?? she questioned me abt my pride? that my pride is too much?? sayin if i-- it'll be fine. whatevver. dun nd this now. according to her i'm still nice. erm okay. and that my friendly-ness is the cos of all this shit [taman]. erm okay~...... no comments. fine~ will dao everyone.... excludin the clan.... & her... & her... & her her her her herrr & that gurl & her classmateS & her.. oh ya that gurl oso... and-- hahahz [grin].
//i messed up
edit ==> kiri's the best! rahhhhhhh hahahhaz. she better den shaleen. hahahz. best of the best.. hahahz. she's nice... lovable... sweet [accordin to her].. hahhaz. ok2.. wont be mean.. hahahz. kiri's the best!!! yay! hahahhaz
kiri : if sylvia scold how? hahahaz. u 2 go argue la. hahahz.
//dun wanna cheat u hahhahaz
oya~ got the urge to blog abt this but i cant. hehz. jus smthg happened at general office. hahahz. chairpersons & vices have to collect diaries rite?? arh~ i wanna blog-- but pei/yw sure dun allow... hahahz. abt.... FUCKface. hehz. argh~ hahahz.. rahhh...
//thought ure better then this. hack ur just a fuckface.
kiri :
hehz! dun be angry la~... hahahz.. u & shaleen sama sama in muh heart. [wink wink] hahahaz. ok ok. bloggin abt u now! see~ 1st thing is abt u eh~ touch not?? hahahz. BETTER be. hehz. at least i walked you down to your class dot dot dot i didn walk her back up. see~... hahhaz. dun be like that~. hehz. totally. oya~ thnks for the shoutout. really lurve it alot & yea will treasure ur present [stare]. hahahz. kiri kiri [shake head]
hehz. had to do that or else someone [point finger at kiri] will happily happily attack me again. hahahz.
today's an evil day! argh~ hahahz. crushed pam's ego. hahahz. not my fault! hahahz. i just realised it so yea~ hahahz... ok2 i take it back. hahahz. thnks for ALL the hi-5s pam. hahahz. those really~ really~ hard painful ones. hehz. [ouch-ed] hahahz.
was luffin throughout bio. hehz. talkin to pei about this movie & the characters [grin]. hahahz. our imagination ran wild, i meant yea~. hahhaz. dun break up pls......... ure more important than val. hahahz. no offence val! hahahz.
pei & i kept singin "i've got my magic stick" &....
cant believe i'm sayin this but today's english period totally rocks! i meant compared to the rest... it's the best. like totally. damn funny. all the ulu pandan phrases. cherie, amanda, nat & val! u were e.d. on my grp! hahhaz. did smthg evil-- wrote smthg evil. feelin guilty now.. but we changed it. yea we did. pei influeced me.. hahahz [pushin responsibility].. hahahz. she started it... she hold the pen she had the "weapon".. she had a choice... hahahaz enuff of lit la! hahhaz. but i chnged it.. i did. hehz. den hand up. hahahz. [guilty]
hehz & i banged dashini. she & ms lee were "debating" whether eddie really have fallen for catherine & argue argue then dashini was like... "i meant yea~ but.... erm..." hehz.. den i think mayb jus maybe i said "BANG!" to loud. hehz. den pei & marcia started luffin. was like oh shit & looked down & they happily2 luffed so loud & ms lee was like "from whatever planet u are at.. pls come back". argh~ hahahz.
mr ng sucks loh! hahhaz. went up to 3a to return shaleen's book & pei wanted to borrow erm ss workbook... then that fuckthup guy~ was like yes!? den i ran all the way to the staircase hahahz like whatverr rite? den he said no to pei.. like helo~?? hahaz who's the gurl who sat near the door?? walau! she so obvious & blur like-- nvm. hahaz. 3a too stress alr? hahaz.
i regret sittin next to val! hahahz. my hand no~ arm is now her "rough paper" hahahz. happily "test ink". hahahz. cherie?? her arm so-- clean. val~ ure the cos of my break up! hahahz. can die arh sit with val, cherie & wei xuan. hahhaz. luffed too~ much.
marcia marcia [shake head]. hahahaz. so did you time ur journey back?? hahhaz. so cute can.. was like stressin out where shld she stop & all. hahz! as usual i wasn helpin.. hahahz. rather i made her even more stress. hahhaz. are u alrite?? hahahz. nvm~ better not push it. hahhaz. later tmr more hi-5s.. hahaz. stay neutral [grin]. hahahz.
nette :
everything will be fine soon~ just wait & watch. hehz. lurve ya. all the sisters of the bimbang clan unite! muhahahhaz.
fatty ass:
hahhaz. ur sudden call shocked me. erm~ dun be crazy la~ hahahz. why wld i be angry with you. stupo~! hahhaz.
//violating or trespassin will lead to me raping you [37]
did mornin run with shaleen. that poker pangsai narden gurl!! i did 8 rounds & she did 9. hehz. smthg happened while runnin e 7th.. hee [blush]. dun wanna say. argh~ hahaz. was luffin through the runs. luffed at pratically everythg. hehz. shhh... shaleen! u promised!! argh~ kill u arh if u tel. hehz.
oooooweeee!
hahhaz. nat! is it like that?
den falalallalalala... like duno how many times. hehz
arh~ nat! hahahz... kept apologisin to her. hehz. cos she looks so-- kacak.
act macho. act macho. change the bag. change THE wallet. hehz.
kkk. doubt u understnd this-- but hack. this is btwn me & nat. hahahz.
pratice THE walk. hahhaz. everythin has to change nat. hehz.
"counting my tears till i get over you". val wrote that on her table & diary. shld i report?? hahhaz. val said my diary's full of words. hehz. i meant nonsense. was bored wad... so much in muh head. hhahaz.
was with cherie & val durin cme. luffed a whole lot. hehz. luffed til our stomach hurts when we saw val's--- hahhaz. wont be so evil [grin]. hehz. -ask me ask me-. hahhaz.
thinks yw's gone. hahhaz. she's in love!! she's in love with wong fai hong. hahahz! she kept sayin how hansem he is & how she would like to fly & see him. hehz. yup~ she turned back. hahahz. new *target. hehz. durin bio, omg! argh~ can jus die on the spot.. too much lufter! argh~ yw was goin on & on how nice he looked in the fightin scene & how-- everything abt him!! argh~ hahahz & she got the "fightin scene song" u kno the te te~ arh~ hahahz.. duno how to say. hahaz. she got that song stuck in muh head.. hahaz & i got it stuck in everyone's head. hahahz. kept singin it durin recess & geog... den mr tan did the wfh's finger thing.. u kno the "come to me" shit?? hahaz.. pei & i were controllin. hehz...
oya~ durin cme period. mrs fung came in late. so~ amanda & i wanted to go down to 3d. at the staircase.... met pei & marcia -also on their way down-, mrs fung was at the foot of the staircase. and there was like total pause. hahhaz. for like 3second pause. like 1 one thousand 2one thousand 3one thousand... RUN!!! climbed up then dashed to our class. muhahahz. kkk... mayb my fault~. i turned & ran up 1st den amanda & pei followed but marcia stopped pei halfway thru the "run". no~ durin the 3s was like thinkin wad "excuse" to give & the only 1 i thought of was "toilet".. but cant use that wad rite?? sec4 level also have toilet. hehz.
"stop pretending that life is beautiful cause we all know it aint"... someone said that 2me today & it hit me real~ hard... shall not say who. dun want it to blow.
cher! tmr wash face again! hhaz.. freakish <--- lime mag
//blank
wrote this for my mom :
within these walls, this prison
my mind & thoughts run free
i think of mom and days gone by
and what she meant to me
i wonder how life would have been
had she not gone away
and would i be, behind these bars
if she were here today??
how would my life be different??
i've asked a million times
if only i could talk to her
she might have stopped my crimes
i am thankful for the fifteen years we had
but she never could have known
of the dark void left within my life
in the years since she's been gone
i needed her and i miss her
and i love her for a fact
but i know my life will be different
if mom were to come back
hack~ she scolded me can. she was like.. so u want me to die la on mother's day... heee... no~! crazy~... mom was like-- "you'll get ur present on thursday". hahhahz. thursday? like maybe-- nvm. cant wait. she said stocks comin in on thursday. hmmm-- i wonder wad it'll be. nvm~ will ask my sis. hah! pester her til she tell me.. hahz.. i'm gd at that [grin]. hee... nites yall
//sayin good nite with lots of lurves & butterflies flyin around <-- learn frm kuti`06
did maths the whole of ytd. argh~ hehz.
1/2 chair : had a dream abt u last nite. it was weird. U & me only. we're eating in a restaurant. hehz. restaurant? it looked expensive though, that place. hehz. we were celebratin smthg. cant rmb wad it was. hehz.
then, suddenly u pushed ur chair back & stood up, givin me that look with fire burnin in your eyes yet tears start to gather. everything ard us dissappeared... one~ by~ one. was waitin to be erased too~.. hehz. ok~ this is where it starts to get funny. hee. u pointed a gun at me. hahhhaz. yar~ i kno. a gun? ok2.. lame but i was emotionless.. starin back at you... cant wait for that bullet 2 cut through the air & pierced through me.. was waitin for it all & it did-- happen. hehz. u shot me cher!! u shot me!! argh~.. hehz. but i didn scream.... i was-- inside. hehz. the bullet hit my heart. hahhaz. saw myself... fallin back, lookin up. blood was gushin/flowin out... and u kno wad u said?? ure like, "let's go home". go home?? cher~ go home? u shot me & u asked me to go home?? wad? hahhahz.. nvm..
//weird
shaleen : hahaz! didno u wld actually read my blog! hahahz. read ur msg in the mornin & smiled to myself. hack. rather i luffed. mom thinks i'm gone. "too much maths". hahhaz. kkk. ur not evil [grin] & i apologize for that. hahahz. need ur skills. guess what?? i cant wait for hockey trng. muhahahhaz. gonna get the old hockey crazy shaleen back cos that karmila's back to. hee.. mornin run?? let's do it man. hahahz. [roar] scary
luckily i haf gotten over the fact that i dun love u so much
and when the time came that i convinced myself to not to like u no more
u ended up liking someone..
wad was i to say?the fact that i gave up was because
i believed that u were str8..but now..hey..look at u..
u are not..contradicting urself..
no one knows wad its like to be in this place
to be locked up in a daze
wishing it was all gone
but now im left all torn
having you in my dreams
makes me end up in screams
my life is vengence thats never free
and every one can clearli see
pounding at every beat
watching you makes my heart gain heat
liking you is fatal attraction
youre cold stares gives me total contraction
//referin to no one.
//findin it totally amusin & yet confusin when i reecalled wad i did this 4months
kkkz... gg to heymaths now. muhahahz. must study. yup. wont waste the memory space i have. hee. erm yea.
to whom it concerns : erm~ sorry abt ytd. was feelin high. been bottlin so yea. sorrry. totally humiliated myself didn i? hell~ dun ans that. erm yar. nthg much too say or do jus "i duno wad to say to u" too. hee.. makin fun of ytd now. it's over. feelin feelingless too. hee.
at least i said--
wasn expectin any reply either.
was just tryin my luck.
yar erased/regret? whatever.
yar diff but up to you.
//all flushed down. totally empty now ((: