it's so cold ok. ahh. marc asked me to use her gloves??? hahah cos she said my hands are sama sama like ice. ok.. that was her exact words, "sama sama like ice". hahhah her mly damn kayu pls, like cheena bukit. hahahaah.
ok, after her, i know that kind of love doesnt exist. hahha ok, not for me.. but apparently cheryl teo suling found it!!!!!!! hahah totally envy narene and her. dots! so sweet okay, narene's break up reasons and everything everything. hahha. heck. she deserves it la so yeah. hahha.
okay, i know it's shit early. hahha.. i'm at marc's place.
sleep over. my mom said i cld since it's like shit near.
ok, she's readind everything out loud. HAHA. marc's an asshole! oh you want to know her real namevtrtk7yekytjdetjgsdg
that's her.. arhh! shoo laa! forget it, i shall tolerate for this few sec. HAHAHA. oh guess what?!?!?!? someone hacked in! [gasp?] i'm tired of chnging my pword pls.. so heck.
i lied?!? i told u everything!!! forget it.
gave?!?! like i said... i ASKED HER TO HOLD ON TO THEM FIRST..
doesnt matter.
so queer that i actually stopped thinking abt her since i've a new matter to think abt.. and the strangest thing is that... it's not abt you, shaleen gul mahtani.. this is refering to my uncle.. cause YOU see, he's in puket [sp?].. we STILL haven heard from him.. he shld be ok.. yeah..
we watched oceans twelve. i fell aslp! wasted!!!!! hahhaha but nvm. then we walked home cause by the time the movie finished, the public transportation had stopped. oh do you know that if you go to the park at like 2plus in the morning... it's scary? hahah and every single sound you hear, you'll grab someone's arm or pull her tshirt. hahha for exmple, just now. hahha lily pulled marc's tshirt so hard that her first button came off. hahahh cause she heard a cat purr. hahhaha so funny ok!! then she ran sprint all the way back to marc's place when the cat ran across us! HAHHA and we ran behind her cos we thought she saw "what". we laughed like crazy when we asked her what happened in the room! damn, this is retarded.
i'm not sleepy!!! ok, i just yawn.. hahhaha. gng home to bathe. hahhaha dont want to bathe at this barn. hahah and also cause i didnt bring extra clothes lah. hahahha.
i wonder why my hands get cold easily.. hahha.
ytd
went to bugis with her ytd. oh apparently i cant type her name down. hahah she's my secret-go-out-partner? dont ask me why, she gave the name herself. went town and i saw her ahh refering to another her. hahah are you lost??? hahha come, go with the flow pple. hahaha. we ran away. hahha ok, she ran, i followed. hahah when i asked her why, she seemly said, "i thought you wld run so i give myself a head start" dots la. hahah. i'm broke pls. been spending alot. hahhaa. she's crazy! i'll "ignore" you when sch reopens!!!!! watch OUT! "see who flicks who first"??? hahahaahha
everything was great till my mom called. she told me abt my uncle... ah. dont feel like talking abt it but i'm sure he's safe? shld be la.. most prob he flew out and when other place and being a jerk, he didnt tell any of us...?
soo.. we left cause.. yeah?
/TILL the next adventure
... marc asked me to go.
i dont know or rather she knows what my ans will be, "i cant". she gives me a week to tell her. that's nice. she said she dont mind me having another on my mind when i'm with her as she knows it'll stop.. AHH! why cant stacy be as nice as marc?!
i dont know... by next week, wednesday. hahs. first msg when i woke up was marc's.. she's nice. it's good to have someone who likes you more than you like them. that's a change for once...
/sweet disguise
i changed my pword again. HAHA?
you said that i've shaken your confidence in Me? guess what.. My WHOLE "friends list" has shaken toppled and your 3 names are no where to be found. thnks, for I've learnt a lesson. I trust pple too easily. THIS is how I feel now.. but I HAVE to keep it to myself. for OUR sake. to salvage this friendship, according to you. HAHA.
you know, somehow i've a feeling that stacy flipped when i msged her is cause she was pissed that i "hand over" her stuff to pei han. hmmm... thnks pei. but nvm, my friendship with pei han goes way back. it's longer than shaleen let alone stacy's.. but i still need time to start talking to you like last time.. boy, was i gullible.
there's a reason in everything i do pls. I'm not impulsive anymore. damn. like I said, i asked pei to hold on to the stuff first until I've truely gotten over her cause it's difficult to see the stuff now, it brings back memories.. I doubt she believes that..
i'm childish and short tempered?? HAHA. yesh, i admit that i'm short tempered but childish?? if i'm childish i wld be doing whatever you're doing now, dissing Me. HAH. heck la.
oh yesh. glad that THIS happened pls. honest. i now know that shaleen and sylvia are not all that I believe they are. damn WAS I pissed. note the past tense pls. HAHA. I'm not sorry for losing friends like them. hahahaha. Its so queer to see them degrade themselves that low. haha. so much for "i CANT stand bubu/joan/blah blah blah". HAHAHA. hey! at least I am what you see pls! except, I'll say that i'm alright when i'm not.. to think that shaleen wld asked cheng for MY pword the night before and pretended like nthg happened today. to think that she got pissed with cheng for not telling her and for asking her to ask Me herself? hahah to think that shaleen didnt ask Me cause she didnt want to take the initiative to talk to Me first..? hey hey, 2 can play this game..
just to let everyone know, what cheng did was noble. HAHA. thnks man. NOT gng behind your friends back. i appreciated that. ok, i admit. I did that b4. I wont deny it but I promise a new person next year. I'll be as low profile as i can.
blog apology:
cheryl teo
i'm sorry. truely. i cant believe you actually talked to me? hahah sounds kiddy but hey, thnks. after what i've done to you.... refering to everything, you still hear me out. hahha thnks. cos you made me laughed again laa. hahha.
last night was the WORST night ever, i think. apparantly my sis thinks that i have been going out too much. note that shitty word "too" pls. -roar so here i am typing this, AGAIN. you know why again? cos my house had a circuit? black out??? every word is GONE! 1hr of entry is ka-phoof!
ahhhh shhh...
i was fucking wrong when i thought things would get better. WRONG! it ended with me crying myself to sleep. how sadistic can that be pls? HA? dont i ever learn my lesson? twice? broken. *#@*^!!!!
vin said that she thought i was some heartless creature. hahahha cldnt help but laugh when she said that. hahah with that slang. hahhaha. nope, i thought so too. only hers. haha. words are meaningless to me but not those that comes from her. dont know why but hers could either lift me up higher then anyone or just force me down down down. ahhh. but the irony is that, i never fail to let her do that as in, i never fail NOT to defend myself... when it come to stacy.
dont get me wrong. i'm not seeking for any sympathy or whatever. hahah but i just find this funny after seeing vin's point of view and furthermore, THIS is my blog aint it? and the reason i locked it up is so as i cld type whatevr i want. blahhhhh. hahhaa.
think this entry is going to be long [i predict] but i hope y'all will carry on reading. some stuff are for you. =))
soon 2004 will come to an end. a brand new year comes.the fucking big Os which I'm so not prepared for. like i said before, its just an obstacle that everyone has to clear. i know its a little to early to write an entry to end off the whole of 2004. maybe I'll write another one on the 30th or 31st of Dec or maybe i'll just "copy paste" this one. HAHA. but, i feel compel to write it NOW. dont ask me why. so here goes. Bear with Me :))
ok. i want to thank the Allah that He sent all of you into my life. all of you have made a difference in my life. be it little or big, its still a difference.
i'm glad to be in the animal farm/bimbangs/mermaid/whatever it is. pei, nat, yw, cherie, jes, shaleen, lily, nette, yo, amanda and val. is marcia still counted?? HAHA. and i really enjoy our time together. i'm looking forward to more nonsense in 2005! I know I'm wonderfully blessed to have such fantastic friends. NOTE: finalize on 1 clique name pls. hahhaha
PEI - like how many years have we known each other? ha? hhaha like how many donkey years, la? hahha still rmb that the first time i spelt your name was "koH pei hEn" haha dont ask me why pls. hahah. thnks for letting me get away with everything. hahah. cant wait for the next "toyrus" trip. hahah rmb to drag shaleen along. hahaha.
NATRIA- hey gf! hahhahaa. hmmm.. i promise to "just" laugh even if i dont get the joke k? ahaha i "act" for you anytime pls. hahah just dont trip me. hahha i'll die one day cos of you, i think. hahah excessive laughter. hahah. oh dont be too hansem k? i'll feel insecure. HAHA.
SHALEEN- ELLO! hahha father thinks we're twin! haha character wise pple. ahha had a blast with you and somehow nthg seems to amaze me anymore. haha TAMAN HAIWAN! hell shit pls. hahha. i'm ever ready to climb up that thing with you anytme bro. hahah JUST waiting for you. hahah and since i'm full of love now, hahaha i'll let you have no.12 and i'll take no.14?? hahah we can sama sama slack pls. hahah. oh stay away frm my bag! haha they created a zip for a reason,know. HAHA.
CHERIE- thnks for the replied mail. haha. and you predicted wrongly! haha i didnt cry! hahah your words arent moving enough! hahah! totally. rather it was hilarious pls. hahha. i love you too cher! and whatver i said, i mean it. dont doubt me pls. hahah. tears. HAHA.
VAL- haha you're retarded. hahah just like me :)) hahah thnks, la. hahaha. thanks for cracking all of us up with Your crazy antics and faces. well, I'm looking fwd to your nonsense in 2005! haha
ilovetheclique!
LAYCHENG- my evil partner mother. how did that happen?? HHAA. hmmm the entry you wrote/typed was superb pls. haha though i didnt know what it mean but hey! hahahha i'm honoured! haha. i'm loving it pls. oh you better be nice to me next year! cos i KNOW smthg which you WERE suppose to keep it as a low profile! HAHA. a personal thang like that tsk tsk. hahah
MARC/VIN/MATT/LILY/co- boo. you guys suck pls! hhaha NOT. though i only know y'all like a couple of days through sue but hey! its been the BEST couple of days i had. haha does that make any sense? hahha hmmm oklah, i'm only writing this so as not to get bash if there aint any for you guys. HAHA. jk!
STACY- dont think you'll be reading this but heck. hahah. i'm nice. HAHA. thnks. i'm dead serious, thnks. i cant deny it but it was fun knowing you. =) no regrets at all and i'm sorry that you had. think you had the most impact in my life, in both ways. i wld never trade this for anything. frankly, i wish i cld revive those moments with you but it all have to come to an end one day.. so yeah, thnks again :)
2004 has been a great year. i never thought it would be. i know i've said this before. never thought 3C's such a nonsensical class. even though we have our fair share of nerds, geeks, freaks and what nots, We still have got the craziest people in our class. take yw for example. haha. she can lighten up the mood in class and best part of all, she can even make the tchers laugh let alone getting them share their "past" memories. HAHA cant believe she ask mrs fung how she met her husband.
or jes, she. HAHA. our class lawyer pls. hahhaa. take it from me, you can never win in an argument with her. haha. natria, our model. HAHA literally. if we have to send someone up to reprensent our class in some outfit... natria's the one, no question ask. HAHA. me? haha the worst chairperson pls. hahah ok la, give me credict for the first half of the year pls? hahahaa. dionne is a walking ear ring fashion model pls. HAHA. devaki, preena, dash.. ahhh i can go onn.
the irony is that, our class is inseparable after the marcis incident. WOOHOO! better late than never. =)
best part it that, we have mrs fung as our tcher. -melts- HAHA she's the best pls. hahah the cakes she bakes. PHOO! haha. i love my class! And I'll be seeing all of You in a week's time or so. i dread school. but the thought of seeing our class and the clique, i can't wait to go to the school. but, I know I must study hard this year. i want to be a somebody when i grow up. that's everyone's wish and dream. who wants to be a nobody? Please tell me.
i'd love to shoot you point blank in the head. or flick you to wake you up. everyone should have ambitions and dreams. i know Education's impt. i'm not going to waste my life away. we've only got ONE life. ONE life. we got to make the most out of it, right? 2004's ending. the memories i had in 2004 were fantastic. thinking back, i really wish i could go back in time.
relive the times. esp in obs, taman, penang and AHH everything! i wish i cld still be in Your arms.
Soon, i'll be 16 and taking the big Os. Time flies, it really flies and waits for no man. BLEH.
in 2004, i made mistakes. mistakes that i should have never made. said things I should have never said. What's done is done. i can only pray that i won't make the same mistakes in 2005. One year isn't long enough ; You're still at the back of My mind. i will be a better person in 2005. no more dwelling on past mistakes and that someone from many chapters back. its time to look forward and move on with life =).
KIRI- thnks. somehow you're harsh email made me see all of this. :)
/what i've said come from my heart
SCREAM!
i love natria pls. HAHA.
love her blog, love THE pword!! -shy
she's my new gf IF she cut her hair and my new hired murderer. HAHA.
the bruise on my head has gone down. didnt know it wld hurt that much getting whacked in the head by a hockey ball. haha. but somehow kiri thinks that have chnged me... to a better man. HAHA. robbie williams.
think elis is so funny. haha. she called to ask where's the cck bus interchange when she's at the cck mrt. HAHAHA. i was like totally shocked pls. hahha. hmmm maybe the bus interchange is at the back? hahah she shld have TURNED and see. hahha when i told her, she laughed like non stop la. hahaha. she's crazy! sigh.. hahha
i waited like half an hour for our princess. dots. [ grab plastic bag, pukes ]
but it was FUN. hahha think i was like damn evil today la. like ultra mean. kept banging our princess. hahhaha somehow whenever i picture YOU and princess... it doesnt match. oh well. hahah i'm being nice here, mom. HAHA.
went to holland v. hahha i have NO idea whyy. hahha bought intended to buy presents then sat down at bk to TALK. hahha. laughed like crazy. i tell you, think today damn sway la. ARGH! stupo dentist/operator 15 was absent so like i have to go AGAIN on monday. tsk, waste muh fucking time. oops... sorry mom! hahah like omg or omg.. how the HELL did she become MY mom?? scream or tears? hahha. oklah.. BOTH.
CANT WAIT for tmr! gng out with marc, matt, sue, lily and er.. i dont know the rest. hahaha sunday!! beach! me with oakley!!! shit. think i'm getting darker and darker.. but heck. hahhaa
/head's spinning.
had bio today and pei overslept. not surprise. hahhaha. waited for shaleen then went to town where we met mun hui. then followed by mel and melanie and shit happened than cherie, poon and stacy.
today WAS supposed to be fun. blablabla. pple got pissed and stuff so i left. think it was a waste of time since all of us was off. no offence but yeah...
/i kept you at the back of my mind
on the way back, i saw the AJC bung. HAHA. she's shit ugly la shaleen! hahha got home then went cycling. hahha typical. somehow cycling just calm me down. hahahha dont ask me why..
marc called so i went over. it was shit fun pls. hahhaha made a new fren, matt. HAHA. hmmm is it a must for all bungs/a/whatever to have a guy name? hahha. helped marc paint her room. hahha. lily was damn lame pls. cant stand her. haha her jokes are of the same standard as delia's. yes, that bad. hahaha. practically like 99% of the time we're laughing AT her and NOT at her jokes. HAHAHA.
painted the whole room black and waited a few hours then wrote our name in white then we draw2 and scribble stuff. its nice! hahah. tried washing my hands but the paints just CANT come off and i had to go home like now now and that dickhead matt took a penknife and ran towards me! like you shld have seen her facial expression and all like "waaitt". HAHA. i'm HIgh!!
oh, lily leaned against the wet wall. HAHA. we totally forgot cos we're laughing and laughing, sharing stories and i tell you, lily's a danger to the society once she starts laughing okay. hahah she bangs the wall and laughed till she was on the floor. HAHA. the best part was that there's a black back paint design on the floor!! hahahah. marc's gonna leave it there. HAHA as a memory??
gng out tmr! yay! HAHA. oh i owe marc a new box of chocolate HAHA cos i happily opened it and ate it. didnt know it was reserved for someone. HAHA. i even offered some to her okay! so not entirely muh fault? HAHAA. SORRY!
me : eh! i love this! can i?
marc: ha? yeah, since when you ask me for permission? haha
me : tsk, anyone??
marc and lily ate then a few minutes later...
marc: FUCK! shit! that's for VON!! KAR-MI-LA!! what did YOU do??? ahhh, trash--bag.. tsk.
i panicked and was like "shit shit shit" then matt started laughing then we all laughed. hahaha.
guess i'm gonna have to buy her another box altho she said it was ok.. hahha having guilty conscience. hahhaha. lalalaa...
i got a teddy bear!! i loove teddies more then anything anything! hahhahahaaa. yay. haha how weird can this be. haha pple giving you christmas present when you dont celebrate and you didnt get anything for them? dots. tmr-tmr. shhh tmr.haha
gotta get for:
*mel
*pei
*marc
*vin
elis
cherie?
*cheng
sunshine
/the more it means to you, the easier you lose it
ok. hahha.
if y'all read shaleen's entry on the penang trip, dont bother reading this cos both of us blog abt it together. hahah we just switched our names around. HAHA.
hmmm.. gonna do this in point form. HAHAHA. cos its gonna be ultra long!! HAHAHAH. oh! we jotted down the time of some funny/embarrassing moments in our phone! HAHA.
shaleen grped with hanwei and ber [she regretted]
while i grped with fer and am'mah [i didnt! HAHAHA]
15th december
the couch left around nine at night.
was waiting for [ her ] msg the whole time but nvm.
16th december
reached penang around seven plus? hahah
and apparently we droved over a bridge without knowing it. ahhahaha.
0747 - shaleen was grumpy cos she wants to go home
0807 - shaleen can think! as in not blur- blur
1838 - shaleen tripped. the pavement was UNEVEN, not her fault. dots. HAHA
1900 - we went out for dinner. shaleen was using my phone to msg someone while i was stoning and stirring my milo. HAHA didnt realised that an ice cube fell out and landed on my wallet which was on top of the table untill shaleen told me. HAHA guess what i did? i picked it up and threw it back hahah forgetting that someone was sitting at the back of me. HAHA. lucky he didnt feel a thing. hahaha. totally man. while i was panicking, shaleen was happily laughing at me. hahahahaha.
1915 - miss martens and diana joined our table. hahah they said i was weak cos i didnt finish my SPICY mee rebos. hahha note the word spicy. hahah so miss martens and diana tried it and they kept quiet, HAHAAH. retarded old farts.
then we headed to giant with them and met the rest where the jrs did their grocery shopping while shaleen and i just chatted and followed them. haha they're totally opposite of us. hahaa. then we talked to pei. hahaha super funny. hahahaha.
oh! and today was the day where shaleen declared dogs to be called "woh woh"
17th december
woke up ard 6 plus [not sure what time] cos we had a match in the morning. hahaha.
1235 - shaleen and i were dying of boredom while waiting for our 2nd game. hahaha. there was this cliff? moutain? like uber high cliff/hill in frnt of the stadium right. yeah. it was a really beautiful sight. erm.. how to explain this... erm...
the whole cliff/hill was covered with greenery excluding this patch of land where it was tree-less?? hahhaha.. we planned on hiking up. HAHA. i dont know where that came from. hahah
1700 - shaleen saw the girl of her dream. hahha a northland player, jersey no. 12. she scored 3 goals. she's really pretty and skillful. HAHA. trying to steal no.12 away from her. HAHHA.
1730 - shaleen shut down. she's too tired and cant think anymore. haha
1735 - i joined her. HAHAHA
oh by the way, we drew the first game and lost the 2nd. hahha. cos all of us were slping before the 2nd game. HAHA and we played like zombies. hahha. slow game man. hahha.
shaleen and no. 12 cannot be an item! cos no. 12 is totally committed to hockey as after her match, she practised her stick work WHILE shaleen... sit down and slack. hahha. hell, she slps!! HAHAH.
18th december
woke up early again for a match. hahha and we lost this one. hahhaa. shh..
1038 - the stick incident
ok, this was really funny. hahha. shhh.. shaleen and i was sitting under the tent after the match. HAHA and we saw the hockey tchirts that the jrs bought and it was really really nice pls. ahhh!
and all thnks to shaleen that we didnt get any cos she kept saying "later later" until become "tmr la" to "sold out!!! how how??" HA! erm..
so as i was saying, she kept saying that we must buy the shirt the next day.. erm must. she KEPT repeating and i guess, i got irritated as i lifted up the stick and gave her a stern look. HAHA. not on purpose! honest! hahah shaleen was saying "we must buy ok? must.. must.. must buy" and man! you shld have seen the look on her face! HAHAHA it was shit funny! hahahaa i guess she was flabbergasted or smthg cos her last few words like slowed down and came out softer. HAHAHA. funny! and the irony of this was that, i myself was SURPRISED of my actions. hahhaahah we started laughing and it took us a while to stop. hahahhahahaha.
TO BE CONTINUED
BOO!
hahha. will blog abt the penang trip with shaleen later..
cant believe i'm back..
the irony of it. that on the first night, i was wishing whole heartedly to be back home and during the journey back, i had tears in my eyes. somehow hoping that the tyres or smthg went wrong and just delay a lil longer.
y'all know? that in penang, we as in shaleen and i laughed the whole time? like literally the whole time. As in everyday, minute and second. i'm not exaggerating. i'm serious. we were having shit load of fun eventhough, we were ostrasized by the seniours [cos we dont see the point of sucking up like how degrading can that be?] blahh.
i miss FATHER! hahha shall go into that later. hahahaa.
later.
thnks everyone for being there. haha. i've cghanged
DONT CHANGE MY PASSWORD!!! leave it as NATRIA~! damn.
had to hand in the goals by nine so yeah. after that met up with chicken for breakfast.. hahhaa. i missed her.
why wont they believe me when i say i'm okay? AHH. i am. honest! swear! whatever it is but i'm telling the truth. this shit is becoming like a norm to me.. though i know this time it's for real.. dots but yeah, i'm okay. damn it, hate it when pple doubt what i say. tsk. dont see the point of them asking if they already have their perfect answer of what they want to hear in their heads.
u cant expect me to break down and cry everytime this happen, right? sheesh.
maybe once a while... i'll think of rmb certain events? and be sad/depress whatever but i'm okay now. AHH. i dont give a flying fuck anymore la esp after her replied msg. HAH. oh the most loserfied/degrading think happened to me okay!! i WAS on the verge of tears when stacy replied this morning. HAHAHA but thnk god i was in the train/public. hahhaha so didnt or rather cant let a tear out... damn, that made me sound super egoistic. hahaha.. but i'm loving it.
oh do you know that i've been pronouncing amelia's chinese name wrongly? HAHA. i pronounced mun hui as moon hui. HAHAHA pei and i think it's nicer as moon hui but amelia tan mun hui thinks otherwise. OH and moon mun hui's getting her pay on the 1st of january hahhaha, it slipped out while she was talking about leen. hahha.
today morning was fun. excluding the part where i got scolded indirectly cos i forced her to eat breakfast with me. HAHA. "we shopped" for the january babies.
rather more to the window shopping type. hahhaha planned to buy for lc this thing. hahhaha but i'm afraid she'll scold/kill us? hahhahaa. it was shit fun la. we played with the toys and stuff. hahhaaa. oh and we totally dissed her. hahaa. laughed alot as usual when i'm with her. hahaha.. oh i love bears. hahha have a soft spot for teddy bears. wait, did i just digressed after praising ko pei han?? HAHAH.
SUNSHINE: sorry again. hahha u know the wrongly phrased sentenced? hahah yup.. sorry...
oh crap, i haven pack! hahha, later.
you know what? i told sunshine abt this break. hehx. i cant hide anything from sunshine and pei. dont ask me why. hahha i expected what sunshine's reaction would be like and damn, i was right. hahhaa *ting ting ting* i'm shit right. hahahaa and pls, dont [ you ] doubt me too. i'm not pretending/acting whatever it is... this time it's true. eh!! those 2 line rhyme!! HAHA..
/this is one of Life's cruelties
ahh thnks to kiri, i can lock this damn thing.
hahha i dont really know why but is "i JUST feel like it" good enough?
i just dont want to let anyone, JUST anyone know abt me.
HAH, somehow that doesnt sound like me.. somehow...
pple who know:
kiri
pei
val
lc---> i think?
so hush hush please...
oh guess what? slept ard 3plus last night, i think? HAHA. last time i checked, it was 0345 so yeah? i dont know why but i was super awake? couldnt slp. hahhaa. played game boy cos i'm supposed to be slpin and the comp's in the study room so yeah.. sheesh.. this feels so much better. hahha suddenly i've alot of things to say as compared to the previous entries..
okay, u know what? i'm missing stacy now. hahah
oh gng to penang tmr till the 21st. yup so yeah. im feeling excited for the wrong reason..... not for hockey but just to get away....
i dont think she's regretting or sad or whatever. hahahaa so why shld i be, right? hahah but i cant help it.. think i stoned alot today.. but is it my fault? i asked her, she said yes. bleh. so not my fault, right?? yup.. not my fault. HAHA cant believe i'm trying to convince myself that i'm not guilty?? HAHA. this is funny. rather.. think this is pathetic.. shit...
ohh.. how can we STILL be friends? ha?? tell me?? u know what. i'm scared that if.. IF we are.. then i might fall for her again? like if we dont talk or whatever?? then i wont have anything to do with her and like blah3 then better, right??
oh the best part is.. SHE TOOK OUT THE *you FROM HER WISH LIST.
that part... i admit.. honestly.. i'm disappointed.. hell, i'm hurt. but nvm. think.. NO, i know... this break is for real. so yeah. HAHA.
ohh.. i returned her jacket today................... felt like using hers for tmr.. for the bus ride at night cause its gonna be cold...
oh just to let yall know.. the HAHAs are all genuine. hahahahaha...
ok.. so it is official. hahaha that shaleen and i are not liverpool fans anymore. HAHA.. have to take it out.
hmmm why doesnt kiri have a tag board???
yup, that's it. this is lame. hahaha
/my dreams are straying me away from what i have
is it my fault?did i do smthg wrong? and if i did... why am i not as sad as i thought i wld be? somehow i expected this... yeah, somehow...
kinda weird that i'm not "broken"... that i'm not running to cheryl teo, crying.. bleh... think i've gotten use to this. honestly, i think i have.
did u see? her blog? no more "*you"... michelle/chermin noticed it first. so was that the spark of everything? as in... was that the sign of telling she's not regretting?
i still love her. oh crap, im starting to break. sheesh..
ok.. i asked her if she wanted a break. i mean i asked her IF SHE WANTED.. and she said YES.. so there... it aint all more fault right? so does this mean that i initiated it??? HA? i'm lost.
later.
ahhh i'm bored again!!!
HAHAHA.. tell you what i'm doing.. haha..
was playing msn checkers with faezah. HAHA. we had 2kings each or is that what u called it? we lined them up in a row cos we cldnt get to eat each other. hahhaha.. then we decided to have a draw cos it wont end. hahahha now, we're playing minesweeper?? HAHA..
pei han is baccckk! er... she WAS on the plane like erm around 3 plus? haha but i was slping so yeah, didnt reply her. haha. there's nthg else i want more now then to talk to her. it's that simple... somehow, my options are suddenly limited.. dots?
/decision decisions
[ you ]:
knowing how u felt was the WORST thing that happened to me. note the past tense as in refering to the word "felt". so live with it. it was ancient history, ytd. dont come and screw/toy with my mind. the last 2 days was the worst day ever. total waste of sms. you're like an itch that i could not scratch.
booo! decided to blog.. HAHA
why is it that all the good players are in real madrid and they still suck? hmmm...
did y'all watch singapore idol the encore?? hahahhaa.. i tell you, i melted when taufik sang "i dream" hahahha and i felt as though i was evaporating when he was singing "me and mrs. jones" HAHAHAHA.. esp when he shared the mic in the end with sly.. so sweett.. hahah k, i know its the encore but ahhh... hahha still like him!.. oh now that i've mentioned this, i'm missing his "1st lady in bed". AH! when the hell is she coming back?! idiot! i miss the sarcasm..
need to find a new song for my blog.. bleh. hahaha i'm getting tired of this song. hahaha..
ahhh... i dont know what else to blog abt hahah..
OH! after this is runaway bride!!! love that show.. ahhaha julia roberts is damn pretty..
/playing
ahh.. i'm bored. tsk.
pei's not here.. cant call her..
stacy's out with her mom, cant msg/call her either..
elis had to go out with her sister so she cant talk and entertain me.. ahh..
faezah doesn't want to play with me anymore, HAHA cos apparently her eyes hurt.. playing pool with shaleen now..
think i'm getting too bored and restless that shaleen thinks i'm getting too vulgar. HAHA.
k, i'll tell u how bored i am...
played tic tac toe, checkers and solitaire showdown with faezah. spam *'s tag board with her too. hahhaha.. ALMOST died/puked after reading [her] blog... AND worst of all... dots.. i'm trying to update or rather blog so as to kill time.. how saddening can this be? HAHA.
shld i.. or shld i not? think pei wld kill me if i ask this question, AGAIN.. but i cant help it... AHHH... i miss KO PEI HAN!!! i waant to talk to heeerrrr!! eh pei! if SO happen you're reading, AGAIN.. when YOU coming back sia?? i know u told me but.. HAHA.. i forgot? hahahaa
hate it when i'm having doubts. HAH.
oh.. guess what?? now i'm hungry. HAHAHA..
ahh... later.
/"cant think of anything to type here"
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think
I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you
I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know
What you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
ytd was fun. hahaaa had sms "war" with pei. hahaa. apparently taufik is her husband..?? dots. hahahaa like what happened to sly?????? stupo fickle minded freak. hahha. and i'm pos to leave the reality to her and me, the dreaming??? hahaa
that was nothing compared to today. nat misunderstood my question. hahah. she said she's taufik's husband without listening properly to me.. hahaha. and pei is taufik's mistress?? haha.. and i'm his 1st lady?? SO.. my "husband" is gay.. HAHA. ok fine.. not funny BUT if u were there THEN you'll think its funny..
and nat kicked my bag!!!! ok lah.. that's not so bad BUT must she "hai yak!" when she kicked?? hahaaahahah. oh the bus ride to ps was super fun. hahah laughed all the way. as usual, nat was high. think candice thinks we're crazy. hahah she kept covering her face and laugh. hahah.
oh candice. if you're reading this.... i'm sorry for being mean, k?? hahha not as in mean-mean but mean as in bang-mean?? hahhaa..
she's super blur la. hahha. talked/laughed alot alot alot the ride back with pei and candice. hahahaa.. still thinking how [she] fell for [[her]]. hahaha. complicated. HAHA.
anyhow, nights pple.. haha
/you sure?
.:me:.
.:wishingfor:.
.: scream :.
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